Thursday, June 07, 2007
The PW gang truly rocks.Thanks Chongmin,Wengkin and Wendy for bringing me out to 'san san xing'(it means to de-emo yourself).Definitely felt much better after hearing much laughters and cranky conversations=).I wished i could be as happy and contented in life as you guys!I need a guardian angel.Maths US Program tomorrow.I'm so dead because i've only studied vectors out of so many topics.But nevermind,think positively.I have 7 hours to study for the remaining topics(provided i sleep at 3am).Yay,for once i'm not emo!Oh keep peering at my homework again and i'll gouge your eyes out like what The Creeper did to Darry's.Pest.
My mind's unweaving/ 8:02 PM
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
Guan says,in this little world,we can only depend on ourselves.I find it very true.I'm currently suffering an emotional rollercoaster.So many things happened around me and it simply overwhelm me.I find it hard to fight back my tears when i'm experiencing one of those moments which no one could ever comprehend.Its a personal thing and different people felt it differently.Some may choose to ignore it so that they won't get hurt in return,others just simply feels that its silly and emo.Well at least i choose to do it alone by myself so that nobody would be affected by my incessant sobs and staring-into-space.Well actually crying really helps to relieve all the tension in you.I'm feeling slightly better now.Sometimes i really don't know why things has to go one way or the other for me,and why things can go so smoothly for other individuals.Why others can be so afraid of authorities when i don't even give a damn about it.Why others choose to be optimistic all the times when there is a chance for them to be pessimistic for once.Why people choose to live in denial about their crush etc.I really don't understand those people.And they don't understand me too.I think we may never understand each other.I want people to understand me.I think i'm a nice person.If you treat me good,i will treat you ten times better.But so far,there are few people whom i feel deserve those treatment from me.I feel more warmth from strangers than those so called friends sometimes.I feel that people whom are not closest to me(other than my family) cares more about me than others whom i always hang out with(an exception:the pw gang).They are the people who knows my life even though i don't divulge much to them and they are the ones that shows their care through their words and actions.Ironic,isn't it?I'm going to the camp not because i agree with what choun eng(in fact i disagree with what she says and i sort of hate her now) says but because of Jennifer.I think she would be the only person i would be talking to for the whole camp.
My mind's unweaving/ 1:16 AM
Sunday, June 03, 2007
Try walking around in heels from 10am to 8pm.It almost killed me.Went out with the PW gang today.The 'dress code' was skirt and heels and it was definitely not my type of dressing but i heed it anyway.Met them at C'wealth mrt at 10am(madness!) and we trained down to Marina Square.Watched Pirates and i was sorta lost at some parts of the movie because i didn't watch part two but anyway i think the movie was alright even though the straits time gave it two out of five stars.We shopped till 7plus in the evening after the movie!And it was kinda weird because Wengkin had to followed us and i knew guys and shopping doesn't click.But i think it was very nice of him to accompany us and i don't think i have the patience to do so if i'm a guy.All in all,i bought a purple top from Topshop(my sis says its ugly:/),a complicated blouse looking top from some shop,two necklaces and three hairbands.I think i blew quite a sum of money but nothing compared to Chong Min and Wendy haha.Oh and of course i'm thankful that they asked me out because i had so much fun!Thank affinity for being the same group as them=) Hmm,and after being with them for quite some time,i've discovered that each of them have their distinct strengths.Wengkin-very easy going.Can talk about girls topics with him without feeling embarassed.Chong Min-very outgoing and sociable.Someone that is not pretentious or anything.Wendy-very meticulous and streetsmart.I've noticed that she remembered which shops we have gone to and all the details.As for me,i'm still finding my strength!Hope to find it soon haha.Alright,i must force myself to study.Camp from tues to fri and mid year is coming round the corner.I'm desperate for help in maths!Somebody help me=(
My mind's unweaving/ 1:11 AM
Friday, June 01, 2007
Cold was my soul Untold was the pain I faced when you left me A rose in the rain.... So I swore to the razor That never, enchained Would your dark nails of faith Be pushed through my veins again My favourite stanza from Cradle of Filth's Nymphetamine.
My mind's unweaving/ 7:05 PM
Monday, May 28, 2007
Omg i look like one retarded freak now with my newer haircut.Apparently the hairdresser doesn't follow instructions and simply cut an even shorter version of my 'bob' and now i am sporting my primary 4 hairstyle.Don't laugh,i'll rather look like a boy than to look like a freak.Guess i have to wait till my hair grows longer during the june holidays=(
I have SMUN camp next week and it will take 4 freaking days.Not very cool when you have mid-year exams two weeks later and you are kinda unprepared.Man,why does bad things come together?Argh...rattle my bones!=(
I'm planning to start my revision on econs today because its one of my weakest subjects(actually i am weak in every subjects) and my mood wants to study econs.How freaky,for once i am in the mood to study!Gonna go to school tomorrow for the fitting of the blazers for the smun thingy and i really don't feel like taking 198 for 1 hour just to try on the freaking blazers.I wanna cry.
Oh man i felt like cutting my hair again.God please don't let me entertain that thought.
My mind's unweaving/ 7:51 PM
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
I didn't realised that my photo in my previous entry resembles that of one you put in front of your coffin in your funeral and also the one you published in the Home section in the Straits Time.And i wonder whether its just me or was it that it has grown slightly bigger during the week?Oh well don't bother thinking.Lots of things has happened during the past week or so.Some good some bad,i can't possibly name them all out.Then again i should be glad because i'm actually preoccupied with things and that may imply that people actually bother about me.How cool is that dude?Oh as mentioned in the previous post,although not directly,i've snipped off my hair,5 inches of it!I went with Chong Min and Wendy to the former's hairstylist for the haircut and i think i look alright in it,although occasionally there is this problem of madhair.I think i'm going to cut it shorter because i still think its too long and thick,although some people really beg to differ.I'll see how things go.I feel that the more you tell your friends about your crush,the more you will think of him/her!Its so true dope,because i've initially sort of forget about him but when i tell CM and Wendy about him,i started my omg-i-saw-my-crush thingy again.But so far only CE know how he looks like and she said that he look like a weightlifter aka he is fat.Omg i nearly snap her spine.I know my silliness is sooo stupid hur.I shall repent.Okay i'm going off now.See you again(:
My mind's unweaving/ 11:53 PM
Friday, May 18, 2007
Bye bye Long Hair,it was great having you.
My mind's unweaving/ 10:43 PM
