you really are my ecstasy

2007-06-07T20:02:00.000-07:00

The PW gang truly rocks.Thanks Chongmin,Wengkin and Wendy for bringing me out to 'san san xing'(it means to de-emo yourself).Definitely felt much better after hearing much laughters and cranky conversations=).I wished i could be as happy and contented in life as you guys!I need a guardian angel.

Maths US Program tomorrow.I'm so dead because i've only studied vectors out of so many topics.But nevermind,think positively.I have 7 hours to study for the remaining topics(provided i sleep at 3am).Yay,for once i'm not emo!

Oh keep peering at my homework again and i'll gouge your eyes out like what The Creeper did to Darry's.Pest.

2007-06-05T01:16:00.000-07:00

Guan says,in this little world,we can only depend on ourselves.I find it very true.

I'm currently suffering an emotional rollercoaster.So many things happened around me and it simply overwhelm me.I find it hard to fight back my tears when i'm experiencing one of those moments which no one could ever comprehend.Its a personal thing and different people felt it differently.Some may choose to ignore it so that they won't get hurt in return,others just simply feels that its silly and emo.Well at least i choose to do it alone by myself so that nobody would be affected by my incessant sobs and staring-into-space.

Well actually crying really helps to relieve all the tension in you.I'm feeling slightly better now.Sometimes i really don't know why things has to go one way or the other for me,and why things can go so smoothly for other individuals.Why others can be so afraid of authorities when i don't even give a damn about it.Why others choose to be optimistic all the times when there is a chance for them to be pessimistic for once.Why people choose to live in denial about their crush etc.I really don't understand those people.And they don't understand me too.I think we may never understand each other.

I want people to understand me.I think i'm a nice person.If you treat me good,i will treat you ten times better.But so far,there are few people whom i feel deserve those treatment from me.I feel more warmth from strangers than those so called friends sometimes.I feel that people whom are not closest to me(other than my family) cares more about me than others whom i always hang out with(an exception:the pw gang).They are the people who knows my life even though i don't divulge much to them and they are the ones that shows their care through their words and actions.Ironic,isn't it?

I'm going to the camp not because i agree with what choun eng(in fact i disagree with what she says and i sort of hate her now) says but because of Jennifer.I think she would be the only person i would be talking to for the whole camp.

2007-06-03T01:11:00.000-07:00

Try walking around in heels from 10am to 8pm.It almost killed me.

Went out with the PW gang today.The 'dress code' was skirt and heels and it was definitely not my type of dressing but i heed it anyway.Met them at C'wealth mrt at 10am(madness!) and we trained down to Marina Square.Watched Pirates and i was sorta lost at some parts of the movie because i didn't watch part two but anyway i think the movie was alright even though the straits time gave it two out of five stars.We shopped till 7plus in the evening after the movie!And it was kinda weird because Wengkin had to followed us and i knew guys and shopping doesn't click.But i think it was very nice of him to accompany us and i don't think i have the patience to do so if i'm a guy.

All in all,i bought a purple top from Topshop(my sis says its ugly:/),a complicated blouse looking top from some shop,two necklaces and three hairbands.I think i blew quite a sum of money but nothing compared to Chong Min and Wendy haha.Oh and of course i'm thankful that they asked me out because i had so much fun!Thank affinity for being the same group as them=) Hmm,and after being with them for quite some time,i've discovered that each of them have their distinct strengths.

Wengkin-very easy going.Can talk about girls topics with him without feeling embarassed.
Chong Min-very outgoing and sociable.Someone that is not pretentious or anything.
Wendy-very meticulous and streetsmart.I've noticed that she remembered which shops we have gone to and all the details.

As for me,i'm still finding my strength!Hope to find it soon haha.

Alright,i must force myself to study.Camp from tues to fri and mid year is coming round the corner.I'm desperate for help in maths!Somebody help me=(

2007-06-01T19:05:00.000-07:00

Cold was my soul
Untold was the pain
I faced when you left me
A rose in the rain....
So I swore to the razor
That never, enchained
Would your dark nails of faith
Be pushed through my veins again

My favourite stanza from Cradle of Filth's Nymphetamine.

2007-05-28T19:51:00.000-07:00

Omg i look like one retarded freak now with my newer haircut.Apparently the hairdresser doesn't follow instructions and simply cut an even shorter version of my 'bob' and now i am sporting my primary 4 hairstyle.Don't laugh,i'll rather look like a boy than to look like a freak.Guess i have to wait till my hair grows longer during the june holidays=(

I have SMUN camp next week and it will take 4 freaking days.Not very cool when you have mid-year exams two weeks later and you are kinda unprepared.Man,why does bad things come together?Argh...rattle my bones!=(

I'm planning to start my revision on econs today because its one of my weakest subjects(actually i am weak in every subjects) and my mood wants to study econs.How freaky,for once i am in the mood to study!Gonna go to school tomorrow for the fitting of the blazers for the smun thingy and i really don't feel like taking 198 for 1 hour just to try on the freaking blazers.I wanna cry.

Oh man i felt like cutting my hair again.God please don't let me entertain that thought.

2007-05-23T23:53:00.000-07:00

I didn't realised that my photo in my previous entry resembles that of one you put in front of your coffin in your funeral and also the one you published in the Home section in the Straits Time.And i wonder whether its just me or was it that it has grown slightly bigger during the week?Oh well don't bother thinking.

Lots of things has happened during the past week or so.Some good some bad,i can't possibly name them all out.Then again i should be glad because i'm actually preoccupied with things and that may imply that people actually bother about me.How cool is that dude?Oh as mentioned in the previous post,although not directly,i've snipped off my hair,5 inches of it!I went with Chong Min and Wendy to the former's hairstylist for the haircut and i think i look alright in it,although occasionally there is this problem of madhair.I think i'm going to cut it shorter because i still think its too long and thick,although some people really beg to differ.I'll see how things go.

I feel that the more you tell your friends about your crush,the more you will think of him/her!Its so true dope,because i've initially sort of forget about him but when i tell CM and Wendy about him,i started my omg-i-saw-my-crush thingy again.But so far only CE know how he looks like and she said that he look like a weightlifter aka he is fat.Omg i nearly snap her spine.I know my silliness is sooo stupid hur.I shall repent.

Okay i'm going off now.See you again(:

2007-05-18T22:43:00.000-07:00

Bye bye Long Hair,it was great having you.

2007-05-14T19:30:00.000-07:00

Hello mortals i'm back again after a week hiatus.Don't worry i'm still alive and kicking,though getting emo-er by the day.I've got lots of things to be done today:

1.DNA Replication
2.Mitosis and Meiosis
3.GP TCA 4

Well actually i can complete all of them by midnight if i don't procrastinate and start working my ass off now but unfortunately my brain ain't working sensibly now and a voice inside my head keep telling me that i need some quality sleep since i've only slept for three hours last night.And another voice tells me that the download for Pan's Labyrinth is gonna be complete soon and perhaps i can watch it by tonight.So many temptations,how can i not get lured?

Oh yeah i finally saw my crush again after like a week?I don't bump into him in school very often and its pretty sucky that my timetable is like completely off from his.But then again i don't think i'm falling too deep into this abyss of 'darkness',hmm not as much as CE i think.At least i'm not a tad bit disillusional and i'm still the same old me.

Guan Bo asked me whether i wanna meet him and Yolanda as it has been a long time since i last saw them.I suddenly felt very comforted because at least i'm not forgotten by my secondary school friends and that they still put in an effort to arrange for a get-together.Sometimes i really wished that reality is not as harsh as it is and that time could just stopped at the moments when i'm truly having fun with my loved ones.But often reality always disappoint us by making the world full of superficiality and planting people whom are the best candidates for hell into your life.Then again i guess its best to ignore those people for now and start focusing on your task,which for me is to stop falling asleep in lectures and start my revision.

Before i go,i shall post some photos i took during the LL trip!Well actually there are only two and its me with Lisu.I know i look utterly miserable and if you wanna enlarge my face and print it out for your dart throwing pleasure,i'm fine with it(:

Bye peeps!

2007-05-02T20:11:00.000-07:00

Hello i'm back after a month long hiatus,well not exactly a month actually.I did post something up a week ago but have decided to remove the entry since i think its kinda offensive to my classmates.Hope you guys didn't managed to read it=)

Just finished my GP summary and i think i crapped most out of it.As usual i can't write well since i'm a central brain person,well you may think of that as an excuse.Hmm suddenly i felt that i'm like an open diary since now Yiting actually reads my blog(Hi 'babe' how are you?) and i think that there have to be restrictions on the things that i can write about,which REALLY bothers me because a blog is suppose to let you whine on others.But i'll try to be as open as possible though.

School was a bother again.Don't really felt like going to school today actually since i went back home late the night before and was really tired from all the activities.But the thought of me playing truant at this crucial period of time kinda makes me wake up from my thought.Anyway,no CCA after school today,which was really great because it means i would be released at 1pm(: Then took a bus home with Clar and CE and i told the latter about some of my problems WHICH I REALLY REGRET DOING SO because i HATE talking to an optimist.And i was kinda pissed off with some of the comments she made,especially the one about my crush(i realised i'm kinda protective for my crush),but of course being nice as usual,i pretended not to hear it.I don't blame her,sometimes i speak without using my brain too,but i certainly believe that hers is definitely more developed than mine.

I think i'm crazy;i find joy in pessimism.I remembered someone in my primary school years told me that the people who say that they themselves are crazy are usually the ones who are the most sane.I nearly choked on my Red Bull when i recall what she had said.Hmm,so by right i'm very sober?How is that possible?Anyway,don't be pissed when i mentioned earlier that i hate talking to optimists.I don't hate optimists per se,i just hate TALKING to them,so don't get yourself worked up if you happen to be one while reading this lest you look silly being angry.

Alright,time to do my Bio tutorial!I would do my maths assignment if i have some spare time left.Hmm long day tomorrow,hope i'll pull it through.Till then,ciao(:

2007-03-29T20:23:00.000-07:00

Hello there,just woke up from my afternoon nap(: Had a scolding from my mumsy just now because i failed to answer her calls(i was in a coma mans).But everything is fine now(:Haha i felt that i'm pretty different today,don't know why,perhaps i'm kinda un-emo?

The bus ride home was very enjoyable today because i had a hearty chat with Choun Eng regarding our crushes!Haha,this is like the first time i saw her behaving so girly mans,soo unbelievable.Then i realised that we have so much in common:

1.We have the tendency to look out for our crushes in school during breaks.

2.We like to imagine how good it would be if our crush likes us/is our boyfriend.Yeah mans it sounds VERY gross but we have a brain for a purpose.To dream.

3.We hope that our crush noticed us more often!

Hmm,actually i sorta dislike people whom don't admit that they have crushes before.If you really don't,then seriously you are missing out the exciting part of life!

And for your info,I'M STAYING.If you don't know what i'm talking about,its perfectly okay because i would want to spare you from my emo sessions(: 7 months to A levels,i must make sure that i'll study for at least 4 hours per day mans.Actually i realised that i'm not afraid of failure.I don't mind retaking my As if i failed.I'm just afraid of how people will look at me when i fail.Now that i've overcome that,i shall live my life to the fullest for life is not all about academics.

Alrighty,some pictures of my sis' dog.Shes so cute!(i meant the doggy of course)

Bye(:

2007-03-24T22:03:00.000-07:00

Woo went to Institute of Mental Health just now!(:

Met the PW gang plus Chin Siang and Geraldine(if i'm not wrong) at C'wealth MRT.Then we set off for our destination.Trained down to Seng Kang and took a bus in.Oh and i regretted wearing black because it radiates heat!Argh.Okay,i forgot to tell you why i went IMH out of the blue.Its because we are doing volunteer work.Oh mans,can you imagine me doing volunteer work!Anyway we had fun and they taught me how to play Mahjong!I find it rather difficult to comprehend given that my RAM is relatively slower than most people and i don't understand why there is a parrot in one of the tile.

Then its the main thing.We are suppose to interact with the residents then Chong Min said something which i find it very funny.

Instructor:Do the both of you know how to play Dum?(you know,that board game)

Chong Min:*innocently*Oh,you mean you want us to zhuang sha?(literally play dumb)

Then i was like,LOL.Hmm,i'm actually laughing now when i typed this.Anyway i played Dum with one of the resident there and i lost despite him giving me many chances!Hmm,actually i felt that people with schziophrenia are actually normal people by default,just that the chemical imbalance in their brain are causing them to have hallucinations and stuff that they do not want.So we should not despise them for we are no better than them in some ways.

Oh i forgot to mention that i knew who Choun Eng's crush is!And she knew mine too because we point them out to each other during breaks wahaha.Then she was like, 'i think your crush is the nai kan type(means you will find him better looking if you see him more often,and oh mans i hate doing translation)'.HMM so she indirectly meant that my crush is not good looking hur.Never mind who cares anyway,boo to her haha,just kidding.Then i did something crazy with her after school mans.I sorta help her obtain her crush pics!Well i don't mean secretly taking her crush's picture okay,that is really scheming and unlike me.Don't tell you how,its highly confidential*winks*.Hmm,she is just so lucky!

Okie i'm sticky all over.Time to have a bath!I shall stop now,byebye peeps(:

2007-03-22T17:57:00.000-07:00

Argh,tell me what to do!8 more days to deadline,still no decision):

2007-03-19T20:11:00.000-07:00

Once again,oh my words,my application to TP's Biomedical Science is successful(:But here comes the dilemma-making a decision to stay or leave within 11 days.Waa aah i'm gonna rip my hair off for sure):

Then again,seriously the hardest part of it all is to break the news to possibly my clique and Ms Yamuna.I can actually picture Ms Yamuna strangling me now and chewing my head off.Oh gosh i'm beginning to get really afraid!But i believe the working world is worse than that hur,because other than just chewing your heads off,your boss might disintegrate your soul and make sure that they are separate entities.Hmm,the endless worries of life.

You know what,i think i'm having bipolar disorder.Don't laugh,i really think i have it!My mood swings from one extreme to the other without me having any concious control and the worse thing is that i think i'm developing another alter ego,Zombie.Its like split personality hur,oh well actually it is.Zombie is like the more emo,negative and quieter side of me whereas my real self is the one you see at home.Zombie comes to life in school and msn though,so most of my friends thought of me as emo and possibly,quiet.But i kinda like Zombie because she is the one that do more thinking and i think shes just being herself.Hmm,i suddenly felt very tired,shall continue this little fable of mine someday.Well,so are you afraid?Because if you do,then i've achieved my aim wahaha(:

2007-03-18T15:31:00.000-07:00

Don't know who she is but i really like her hairstyle!But that also means snipping off more than 6 inches of hair): Hmm i don't know):

2007-03-17T00:31:00.000-07:00

Just had steamboat with my first three month classmates!(:

Met 1S05(SRJC PAE 06) at Marina Bay at around 5pm.I thought i was late,but who knows,i'm actually one of the earliest to reach!We loitered(i can't think of any nicer terms to use haha) for a while before setting off to one of the steamboat places.Woah mans,it was freaking hot there and the worst thing is that i didn't tied up my hair,so you can imagine how unglam i looked.Anyway,it was choking as well but without all these elements,steamboat would not be as delicious right?

Went to the arcade after that!I practically got owned in every games): Guess i'm not inclined to games hur.But its alright because at least i have fun with them(: By then it was already 9plus and the guys were feeling tired so we headed home.But overall it was great to meet up with them(especially kai hui!) since it has been aeons since i last met them.Woo some of them looked really different and as for myself,i think i still looked as boring.Boo hoo hoo.

Just checked out my course application status at NYP and TP webby and this is what i see:

TP

Status:
Under Consideration

NYP

Status:
Receiving Attention

I SEE RED!What was that supposed to mean hur?Can they be more succinct hur.Anyway my friend said that DAE results would only be out 2-3 weeks later so i shan't worry unnecessarily.Not that i do,just that i find the phrase 'receiving attention' slightly amusing.

Alright i'm sleepy.Buh bye!

2007-03-15T13:23:00.000-07:00

Zomg i'm so dead because my holiday assignments are not completed yet!I SHALL NOT PROCRASTINATE EVER AGAIN):

2007-03-11T23:34:00.000-07:00

Sorry for the lack of updates,my apologies!Been busy over school related matters for the past weeks so can't really have the chance to just sit down and blog): And yup i've submitted my application forms to the relevant polys,but i snail mail it on the last day of the deadline,so i don't know whether it will be considered late.Hope not!Anyway my choices are:

Biomedical Sciences(TP)
Molecular Biotechnology(NYP)

In case you're wondering why do i choose TP instead of other polys nearer to my house for the same course,well its because a Biomedical Sciences diploma from TP fetches far better and more courses in NUS and NTU than those from the other polys.Didn't know that until i did my extensive research on the prospect of the courses.Haha i'm really paranoid,can't even confirmed whether i can get in in the first place hur.Anyways,i'll just wait and see(:

Enough of my endless rumblings,i have a Bio test tomorrow):Yes its the holidays but i still have to go back to school from 8AM-4PM TOMORROW!A wicked 8 hours of academic nonsense.Oh well not really nonsense,but still,its totally without a doubt,cruel and unfeeling):And i still have 'Genetics of Viruses and Bacteria' to mug,so that's all for now.BUH BYEE!*did a little wave*

2007-03-02T12:01:00.000-08:00

Zomg i got an A for the silliest subject ever,CHINESE!

Yesterday was the release of the A levels results,as well as the chinese results for J2 who took the chinese paper last year.The J2s have a clear view of what is happening in the hall through video conferencing in LT5,which i find it extremely stupid and inconsiderate,especially when the cameraman zoom in on those who cried after receiving their (bad) results.Please let them have their private moments okay,they don't need half the school to know that they flunk or something.

So the J2 are supposed to receive their chinese results after the video conferencing thingy but the funny thing is that Ms Yamuna already handed us our result BEFORE the stupid event.So the handing of results happened in the chemistry lab for us and it must be the most unlikely places to do so.Ms Yamuna was like '13 of you got A',then i was counting my probability but gave up simply because i've forgotten how to do so(yeah i took H2 maths,don't slap me).I wasn't nervous AT ALL before that but when Ms Yamuna called my name,i was shaking slightly?So i walked to the front,signed my name,took the piece of paper,and scoot off to my seat.And while doing all that i accidentally glanced at my result slip and saw that freaky grade.I don't know whether to be happy or sad because i told Yolanda that i will let my chinese result decide my academic path,that is,i will stay in jc if i got an A,and i will go to poly if i got a B or worse.So i was thinking i will not be lucky all the time and most probably i will get a C or soomething but...

Haiz don't tell me all these are due to affinity again??I feel like breaking my promise and go ahead with my decisions,but i'm sorta afraid that all these are arranged by someone of a higher order,like maybe God or something.Then at the same time i don't think my parents would like the idea of me going poly out of the blue,especially my Dad,whom is so proud of me being able to make it to a JC.SO WHAT SHOULD I DO MANS.

So my plan now is(after much consideration of course):
>Appeal into a poly on Mon,just before the release of JAE results
>When the appeal results are out,and if i got in,i can choose whether to accept or reject(by then i would have already seek approval from my parents and have ample time to think carefully again)
>If i don't get in,then i will start whining here haha.

I think this is a very good plan because i can choose to reject the offer if i feel that i should stay in JJ,rather than not do anything at all and regret after the admission exercise is over.So for once i think i'm smart haha.So right now there are afew courses that i'm interested in:

Biomedical Science(SP)
Chemical & Biomolecular Engineering(NP)
Chemical & Pharmaceutical Technology(NYP)
Pharmaceutical Sciences(NYP OR RP)
Pharmacy Science(NP)

Hmm 2 days to think carefully again.Bye bye.

2007-02-27T18:45:00.000-08:00

Some photos i took during CNY.Hope you don't get nightmares after seeing it):

Me and my sis.This photo don't do her any justice haha.

I look like a mainlander,ain't it?

My parents and my grandpa.I look outcasted.

I can finally have a rest after two gruelling days of mugging!But theres more to come next week so its not over yet):

2007-02-23T19:45:00.000-08:00

Just came back from school!Had chem test after school today.Was soo super sleepy before the test because i've slept for only 3 hours the night before just so that i can memorise everything):In the end when Ms Yamuna left the class during the test,the whole class starts discussing about the answers.I was quite mad about it because hello,its suppose to be a TEST and you are short changing yourself if you start copying from others.I think most of my classmates didn't study hard for the test so i guess thats why they resort to that.And of course i didn't discuss at all because i did my work.But i'm not sure whether i will do well in it.Hmm,it may seems to be a trivial matter but its those little 'disturbances' in life that makes you the most pissed off.Yeah man,dear fellow mates,don't be angry if you happened to be reading this entry because i'm a firm believer of 'make love,not war'.Peace out(:

Ate beehoon in the canteen after the test with Chin Siang and Lisu.By then it was already 5pm.I was famished because i didn't eat anything for the whole day and i had PC in the morning.Now i'm still feeling full but my mum has cooked my dinner,argh.How am i suppose to swallow all that food):

I think my weekend is going to be routine again.And that means MUG MUG MUG.Theres lot of work to finish plus Bio and Chem test is on Tuesday and Friday respectively.Oh my goodness,i hope i can survive next week.Guess i have to start my work tonight and that means i can't shop for a new bag.Boo hoo boo,yeah i have lots of complains,but its just me):

And i saw my crush today after 8 days!And i actually bothered to count haha.I hope my crush don't know about my 'yayisawyoutodayiamsohappy' thingy.I think he may freak out haha.Alright,got to eat my dinner now.Have a pleasant weekend and see you soon(:

2007-02-20T00:39:00.000-08:00

Kill me please because i've changed my blogskin again.But I PROMISED that i won't change this skin for the next two months okays?Hmm,lets talk about CNY.Well,i don't really have much to talk about other than the fact that its the same every year and the best part of it is just the extended holidays.Mine was pretty alright but i won't digress much since i don't really have the mood to do so and you guys won't probably wanna hear me yank about it.I'll post up pictures of me myself and i taken during CNY if i get hold of any okays.Till then,wait for my next post because i'm gonna hit the bed now(:

2007-02-16T20:56:00.000-08:00

Had class outing yesterday!

School ended at 1pm so there was ample time for us to catch a movie and stuff.So we took 174 to PS and the ride was super duper long.Had our lunch at KFC and we shopped for a while before watching Ghost Rider!Hmm,my friends said that it was a nice movie but i find the plot kinda predictable and boring.Plus,i don't really fancy Nicholas Cage in the first place haha.I'll give it 3 out of 5 popcorns(: Had dinner after that,hmm it wasn't really a dinner for me since i ate nothing.Don't really have the appetite anyway.In the meanwhile Yiting and Zhixin were chatting heartily about eye candies in the movies they had watched and stuff and that makes me realised how outdated i was when i discovered that i only watched 1/5 of the movies they watched.Hmm,i'm deprived.

By then it was around 9plus so we finally decided to go home.We waited so freaking long for our buses to come mans.I was so tired that i fall asleep the moment my head rest against the window.It was a fun day afterall(:

Its Chinese New Year's eve tomorrow!Aren't you excited?Haha,i went to cut my fringe just now(again!) and i sort of regretted it because i looked really nerd.I hope it grows out soon!Alrighty,thats all for today and enjoy the extended holidays(:

2007-02-14T23:59:00.000-08:00

Its Valentines' Day!Although i do find it as overrated as Christmas,but i'll still wished you guys a Happy V Day!(: So do you spent it alone or with your significant other?Haha i don't wish to know it anyway(:

Felt kinda guilty when my classmates gave me homemade cookies and chocolates contained in fanciful wrappers when i didn't prepare anything at all for them.To be frank,i actually forget that it was V day until i saw a girl holding a bouquet of roses on the street.Hmm whats up with me haha.I think i'm the sort that isn't into those girly stuff like for example,preparing gifts for others during V day or Christmas.That kinda worries me because even Choun Eng gave out jellies today(although she promised instant noodles?)!Gosh,alright i promised to be more girly next time and make an effort in those kind of things.

OH GREAT NOW SOMEONE KNOW WHO IS MY CRUSH!Haha,Dorcas if you're reading this now,hope that you have not breathe to a single soul as to who my crush is or else you will not get to see the first ray of light tomorrow.Alright i'm just kidding,anyways i'm the one that tell her first because i thought she might not know who he is,but to my astonishment:

ARGH!!!I'm quite surprised that she knew him(i won't tell you how) mans.Hmm,what a day to end V day.Alrights class outing tomorrow,shall see you then(:

2007-02-12T21:24:00.000-08:00

My sis was hospitalised because she was unwell to begin with and fell hard on the ground.She hit the back of her head on the floor and blood starts flowing out of it.Not a pleasant sight to behold and certainly it sort of affects my mood.Now i'm all alone at home as my parents are now in the hospital settling all the administrative stuff.And i'm feeling emo again after listening to a list of songs by Muse.Don't ask me why i'm still at home in front of the computer typing this post when i should be in the hospital feeling concerned about my sis.I'm equally concerned as my parents,just that i feel that my physical presence in the hospital wouldn't help her a slighest bit since i'm not a doctor or a healer.So isn't it better for me to stay at home and do my homework instead of being there and getting nothing done?Hmm mm...

I initially planned to tell my parents about my 'struggle' with JC life but after what happened today,i guess i have to put off the plan till a further date.Nothing is confirmed yet;i may not choose to go to a poly after all.I just want to tell them that i'm facing alot of 'unhappiness' with my current academic path per se and that they might have to expect a decision from me soon.But after what happened today,i was thinking whether all this was planned by God(in general).Why do my sis happen to hit her head today and not on some other day?Why is it that when i wanted to tell my parents about it,this morbid incident happened?So was this part of the affinity i have with JJ?Does God want me to stick to this path?I have absolutely no idea what lies ahead but one thing's for sure,its not going to be easy.

Giving up my life in JJ is not an easy task.I think the hardest thing to let go is saying goodbyes to my friends,especially my classmates.Goodbyes are not always easy to say in the first place,they require alot of determination from the speaker.Secondly,i think Ms Yamuna might kill me haha.I can imagine her pupils dilating and her brows raised in dismayed.Hmm,not a pleasurable sight too.Thirdly,i think i'm setting a bad example to my OG11 campers.I feel that i do not practised what i preached(that is,JC life is 'great').The fourth point is,i've come to this far,am i wasting it all if i let go just like that?I would have waste my teachers' time and effort on me,plus my own's too.But on the other hand,these sacrifices may be necessary if i do not want a lifetime of regret.These sacrifices are necessary if i want to do something that i really enjoy.So till now,i'm still in a dilemma.I shall see how things go after CNY.

Oh and i missed out a point.One of the thing i find it hard to let go of is the chance to see my crush in school.Haha,am i silly?And i really wondered whether he knew of my existence in school,that i constantly kept a lookout for him,and that there will be a sudden flutter in my stomach whenever i see him?Hmm,how was he supposed to know in the first place haha.Hope i'll get to see him again tomorrow(:

Alright,i'll stop at here.Got to mug my Bio SPA for Wednesday.See ya buddies(:

2007-02-09T20:04:00.000-08:00

I'm so totally hooked to Knights of Cydonia by Muse!This song has been playing in my head for like the whole day?Hmm mm,i've put it in my blog(:

I've been very busy for the whole week so that explained why i didn't blog for the past week.So sorry my dear readers(if i have any,that is)!Alright,let me talk about school stuff.I'm late again for the third time today!I'll blame it on the Chem SPA then because i've mug for it for six straight hours the night before just so that i can memorise everything that is necessary for skill D.I know i'm detestable in some sense but WHO DON'T WANT TO SCORE WELL HUR.But other than SPAS,i don't really study very hard for the other school tests.Hmm,time to change.

I'm quite surprised that my class top the cohort(i think) for the Organic Chem test!100% passing rate and average score of 27.Great credit to Ms Yamuna!However,i feel that my marks has pulled down the class' average because i've scored only 22):But i'm going to work even harder so that i'll feel proud of my marks in future(:Mark my words baby!But that only applies to Chemistry because i know for sure i'll fare badly for the Maths Complex Number test.Maths just ain't my thing):

I've received feedback from the people around me that i'm an extreme emo/pessimist/depressive.THANK YOU(: But seriously whats wrong with being one?Thats just an example on how Man can organise his thought!Sometimes i really do feel mad when people reinforce their thoughts on me because that means that they don't accept the way i think.There is no fixed or correct way to think about life so you'll be the hippie who hope for world peace and i'll be the emo who think that life is tough okays?

Thank goodness its FRIDAY!Finally i can have a breather from school stuff and catch some quality sleep.My eye rings looked its worst today in contrast to my pale countenance.Hmm,thankfully my crush didn't see me in such a state haha.But it doesn't matter even if he does so because i don't think he ever remembered seeing me around.Sad hur,boo hoo.But its okay because sometimes things wasn't meant to be and you have to let nature take its course.But most of the time nature is cruel to you):

Alright,i have to bathe now.My apologies if my sentences sounded weird.Bye peeps and enjoy your weekends!(:

2007-02-02T22:36:00.000-08:00

A picture says a thousand words so i'll let my photos do most of the talking for day 2 and 3 of my attachment(:

Day 2

Chin Siang and me.We get to wear lab coats!Ain't it cool?Look at the height difference too):

Choun Eng,Chin Siang and me in our lab coats.My pose is really stiff hur.My first attempt at smiling without showing my teeth fails miserably haha.

Taken after the attachment ends for the day in front of the same lift(: I really like my pose for this photo haha!But Choun Eng and Chin Siang doesn't seems to know where is the lens hmm mm..

Day 3

Today was rather slack since we completed most of the things on the first two days.Had lunch with group 4 and as usual,me and Choun Eng ate as though we are refugees.Then Ron took a photo of all of us(as in all of the students in the course).They even print it out in A4 size for us!Then Jean Ngee says that we shouldn't feel so grateful because the photos were printed out using the taxpayers' money,specifically,our parents' money.Haha,i'm really amused when i heard it.

You guys must be wondering who's my partner for the whole attachment right?Heres Nicole from RGS!(:

My hand was trembling when i took this shot so we look as though our spirit has left our body.Nicole is the one on the right,like duh.Hmm mm heres a better one.

I like this shot alot because the lighting was great.Look at the height difference.I FINALLY HAVE THE CHANCE TO BEND DOWN WHILE TAKING PHOTO WITH SOMEONE!Well our height difference is about 12cm(162-150=12)Hmm mm,and i look like a da jie jie beside her(:Hope she will continue to ace in her studies!

Took this at the last day which is today): Haha its in front of the same lift again.But this time we are in different shirts.Was kinda sad after taking the photo because i realised that this may be the last time i'll be in Biopolis and perhaps,the last time i'll see my partner and my attachment mates for the rest of my life.Even though its just three days,but i've learnt really alot.Thanks CAVR for giving me the opportunity!((:

2007-01-31T19:56:00.000-08:00

Woah just came back from my first day of attachment at IMCB.Generally it was better than expected!

Had breakfast with Chin Siang and Choun Eng in the morning.Was supposed to meet at 7am but in the end,we were all late so we drag till 7.25am.Had century egg porridge at this coffee shop in Holland V.Then we set off for our attachment!Felt kinda inferior the moment i saw the other students whom are in the same attachment as us because they are from VERY good schools.Majority of them are in Sec 4 and you know what,they are from RGS,NYGH,MGS AND ACS.Top schools in Singapore sia.There were people from AJC and VJC too,hmm so now you understand why i will develop an inferior complex haha.Anyway,we are supposed to pair up with someone whom is not from the same school as you(wonder why they have to set this rule) so in the end,i paired up with this girl from RGS.Her name is Nicole and she is in the integrated programme(PSLE score 271!)Hmm quite a nice girl,not fierce,fussy,bossy or anything,which is great(: The funny thing is that even though i'm two years older than her and is in JC2,she was the one that guide me throughout the course of the day.Ironic hur?I felt embarrassed):

Thankfully i was in the same group as Choun Eng or else i will feel really lost haha.Hope that tomorrow will be an even better experience for me.Hmm,anyway miraculously it ended on time today and thank goodness Biopolis is so near my house(:Some photos before i sign off.Argh i look weird as usual since i'm second to none for being non-photogenic): The photos were actually reflections of us on the doors of the lift in IMCB(:

Photo abit grainy):

My victory sign looks forced):

But i'm happy(:

2007-01-30T21:27:00.000-08:00

As you can see,i've changed my blog skin(:Got quite tired of the previous one so decided to change into something more 'me'.Alright that doesn't sounds too right.

School was kinda alright for me today just that i'm late once again.The bus came later than usual mans):And i think i'm the only idiot who surrenders my Ez link card again.I don't know why i did that,but heck anyway.Lessons go on as usual just that me,Choun Eng and Chin Siang took our Bio SPA trial today instead of tomorrow because we have IMCB ANTI-VIRAL ATTACHMENT FROM WEDNESDAY TO FRIDAY!Isn't that cool?Not.I'm gonna miss lessons again and i can't see my crush in school.Okays i was only joking about the latter,okay maybe not.Attire is college tee and pants.Eww,do the people there have fashion sense?Thats totally wrong mans.Well no choice anyways.So we decided to have breakfast at Holland V before the attachment but that depends on whether we can wake up on time haha.Kinda nervous for the attachment since i always tend to break the laboratory apparatus back in school so if i really screw up,haha i don't know what will happen to me):

Actually i do want to blog about quite alot of matters but suddenly i just can't remember what i want to talk about):So i think i will end here.Good night and sweet dreams everybody.

2007-01-29T21:45:00.000-08:00

Woah mans i was super duper suay in the morning on the way to school.I saw bus number 198 approaching the bus stop so i quickly ran to the bus alongside with some JJCians but the inconsiderate bus driver drove away the moment he sees us!The bus wasn't even full mans.I was fuming mad and just when i thought my Monday blues was bad enough,i started to have a stomachache):So i had to go to the toilet(its quite obvious why i go to the toilet) and in the meanwhile,i wasted alot of time.So in the end i was super late for school.And i think i was the only idiot that surrender my EZ link card):

The worst thing was that we have to run 2.4km during PC.I was asking myself why i even bother to turn up for the day.Then Lisu asked me to run with her pace but it was an impossible mission because the haemoglobins in her red blood cells are far too superior.After the third round i told her that its better if she run first.But the run was good,i felt really refreshed after that(:Then a funny incident happened.I was queueing up in the canteen when the DM saw me and asked me why am i so thin and whether i purposely go on a diet.I just smiled at him and walked away.Come to think about it,i think my reaction was kinda silly):

Stayed back after school to prepare the display boards for our class for the Love Fiesta.Practically me,Choun Eng and Chin Siang were slacking away.But at least we did something*winks*.Then we stayed back with some others to do our GP homework.Oh mans theres alot to be done):Not that i'm against GP or what,but its really too much.We stayed till around 7pm when we decided that our minds aren't really functioning in a right way so we packed our bags and left the school.Took 185 with Choun Eng and we chatted quite alot in the bus,mostly about IMCB haha.Hope it will be a great experience for us!

Oh mans theres alot of things to be done i supposed but my mind is not willing to do it.Theres time whereby i really want to give up-giving up life in JJ and venture into somewhere whereby i really truly have an interest in.Not that i'm unhappy or depressed in JJ or what(to put thing straight i love the friends i've made in JJ and a tweeny bit of its cheena culture) but theres got to be more to life.I don't know what i really like till now,i'm in the midst of searching for it and when i really know what i want,i hope i have the courage to pursue it.

After reading the previous paragraph,i realised how politically correct i was.Hmm i don't like that side of me haha.Hmm mm i saw my crush today i supposed but i won't divulge much.I really admire how some girls dare to describe their crushes in their blog without feeling afraid that their crush might find out.But i'm a secretive person so unless someone force me to swallow a grenade,my secrets will follow me to my grave.

Okays thats about it,i'm already yawning):Bye guys.

2007-01-27T00:36:00.000-08:00

Omg i didn't post for like a week!Well i'm too busy with my studies and thats why i don't have a chance to blog.Anyway i think the entry will be super long if i recount what had happened for the week so i think i'll just blog about today,erm i meant yesterday since its past 12am now(:

Had Chemistry lecture followed by PC.It was freezing cold when i ran in the rain!PC is super tough today and i felt quite nausea after it.But thankfully the irky feeling subsided after a while.Had break followed by Maths tutorial.I was quite discouraged after Maths tutorial because i had difficulty understanding what Mr Subash had taught(Differentiation is so complex to me):) and also simply because i just don't like that subject.Then i messaged Yolanda about it and she gave a very funny reply:

''Take it easy!Tink abt ur crush as e math teacher and everythin'll go in!''

LOL.I don't know about you but that was super funny to me!I didn't thought about that method before so maybe i'll try to use it.But at the same time it may not work because i think you'll be too captivated by your crush so much so that all his/her words will fall on (your) deaf ears.Of course,most importantly is to get lots of practise and patience,which i'm seriously lacking in):

Had Maths lecture and Chem Prac after that.Not going to elaborate further because nothing interesting happened): Then after that i went home to change my clothes then meet up with the PW gang at Jade to prepare for the upcoming PW exhibition.Its weird that our group got in because our idea isn't really that fresh or creative.Erm maybe because its politically correct hur.Anyway we slack for like quite a fare bit before our stomach starts groaning.By then its 7.30pm so we headed down to Pastamania at Westmall for our dinner.To my surprise i can't finished my spaghetti.Why hur,i wondered to myself.It was raining quite heavily by the time we finished so we headed back to Jade to tidy up our report and...took photos!Wah ocm's camera flash is like so freaking bright la,it almost blinded me haha.I look like a freak(unfortunately) in all of the shots mans,hmm mm.By the time we finished everything,it was around 9.30pm so we said our goodbyes and departed.

Oh yeah man i wanna cut my fringe since its like covering my eyes and making them irritated but from my past experiences i always regretted after cutting it.SO SHOULD I?Hmm mm mm.Okays i'm so tired now and i wanna sleep!Wanted to type more but my mind is screaming for help now.Okays that's all for today babes(:

Yeah mans i think its a crush.

2007-01-20T23:26:00.000-08:00

ARGH ARGH OMG I CAN'T BELIEVE I'M SO DUMB):

I was blog visiting then i chance upon the blog of my friend's friend.I don't think she know me(that's the problem).Then there was this crushcalculator thingy at her blog and it requires you to enter your full name as well as your crush's to see whether both of you are compatible.Being smart,i suspect that the thing was a hoax so i enter 'samuel lee'(a fake name of course) as my crush name.Then true enough,it was a hoax.But whats the problem?I ENTERED MY FULL NAME!NOW SHE KNOW I READ HER BLOG):BOO BOO.But thank goodness my crush wasn't the one that tricked me and i didnt enter his name or else i wouldn't be online now.If that really happens i think i will be thinking of ways to disguise myself or pretend that i was trying to be funny.

Hmm,speaking of my crush,i wondered whether i really have a crush on him?Okay i know it sounds weird but i'm like that):How does it feel when you really have a crush on someone?Different people have different opinions on that i suppose but i guess the more common symptoms includes feeling excited or nervous whenever he or she is around or thinking about him or her all day?Mm not trying to be gross or what but my symptoms are:

>scanning and squinting for him in the crowd
>writing emo messages in my lecture notes
>behaving sweet and demure when i wasn't one to begin with

So are these symptoms that you actually have a crush on that significant person?Haha don't know why but i hope its not.Liking someone and having to see that someone so faraway isn't a very good feeling.Having to suppress those feelings within yourself and pretend that nothing happens isn't fantastic either.Worst still,you pray hard that you'll get noticed but at the same time,hope that he or she doesn't know about that little secret of yours(but if your crush likes you as well then congrats to you).Hmm who think the same way as i'm?

Throwing that aside,i went to Queensway shopping centre just now to buy fbt shorts.To my disappointment,there was no stock for black size M so guess what,i bought S!I can choose between S and L but the latter looks huge.Don't know why i will make that decision.After buying it i was feeling rather scared because i bought two of it and i don't know whether i can fit into it!So i scramble into the washroom to try it out and thankfully its just right for me,but hmm kinda,erm short?(maybe i'm too conservative).I truly hope its not too short):

Okay buddies i'm off,don't think too much okays?Bye!

2007-01-19T21:56:00.000-08:00

ARGH MY HANDPHONE DIED ON ME):

It was fine early this morning but when i was about to leave for school,there was a beeping sound and the screen went blank.AND IT WAS FULL BATT.So i try to salvage the phone but it doesn't help.My trusty phone of 1 year,5 months and 11 days is dead): What i can do now is to send it for repair or buy a new one.Can't decide on which one to choose mans,what do you think hur.I hate this kind of things...

Woke up early today to revise my Chem once again.Did my revision the night before but it was kinda last minute(again!) so i don't feel secure.I was quite nervous minutes before the test because i have a tendency of screwing up tests,major exams and SPAS.So i did it once again because i was immediately stuck on the first question,which kinda deplete all the confidence that i have.So i skipped it and hurriedly move on to the other questions.I think i'm a goner for the last question which carries 6 marks simply because of my panic attack.I just don't understand why i would get myself so nervous mans.Maybe its just me):

It's the eve of Yiting's birthday(:We play a prank on her by using a marble cake and act it as though its her birthday cake.Its kinda lame la but eventually she still finds out.But we have fun so it doesn't matter.Then it was maths tutorial and maths lecture one after the other.ITS MY HATEST SUBJECT AND THE ONE WHICH I FLUNK MOST MISERABLY):Imagine i have to take H2 Maths without Amaths knowledge,how bad is that hur?I really regret not doing well in maths in secondary school and now i have to suffer the agony of not understanding 99% of the topics without flipping through a secondary school Amaths textbook.So much so for my rants again.Mum,i need a tutor.

Took 198 home today.I felt that i was quite snobbish to my friends because i simply did not utter a single word to them for the whole journey.Then again i'm always this depressed so don't be surprised.I was reaching my destination when i saw Louise,my OG11 camper.I think she was there all the while but i failed to noticed her(i was dozing off and trying my best not to slump forward).So sorry girl,my bad):So i gave her a silly wave when i was about to alight haha.

Argh not this feeling again.My body is releasing far too much adrenaline today for obvious reasons which i would not specify(unless you really can't figure it out).Gosh,go away.

I think i saw you again today,isn't it?

2007-01-16T18:48:00.000-08:00

It's raining now and i'm feeling emo again):

I love Tuesdays because its the slackest day of the week.Minimal lessons plus an hour break,how cool is that?Well not exactly that cool come to think about it.Oh yes i'm pretty upbeat that me,Choun Eng and Chin Siang has been chosen to attend the IMCB's Anti viral attachment!We are like so lucky man,because there were so many applicants and only five vacancies and yet the three of us got in(:Woo hoo i think i just have a great affinity with A*star(:But that means missing three days of lessons again,so i think i have to work really hard):

School ends at 2pm today and i went straight home with Choun Eng and Yiting on the bus.Yiting was persuading us to take 198 instead of 185 with her and the reasons that she gave were super hilarious.Sometimes i really wished that i have half of their 'funny genes' because i'm such a boring person and i'm always trying so hard to think of something funny to crack people up but i end up sounding emo rather than funny):

I took passport photo shots today and i look really HORRIFIC.Its gruesome and grosteque!I can't believe i'm the person in those photos):And i really look like a drug addict with those tired eyes and frizzy hair.Too bad photoshop isn't allowed BOO BOO.

I'm gonna stop here.I gather that i have some unfinished business):

I scan for you in the crowd today.And i think i saw you.

2007-01-13T23:15:00.000-08:00

Woo am i the only one that is feeling cold?ITS SOO FREAKING COLD LA!

Went for Maths lecture early in the morning.Initially i don't feel like going because its not compulsory(its for ogls who have missed the previous lectures) and the cool weather makes me so freaking sleepy!But the more i thought about the possiblity of failing maths in A levels,the more dreadful i got so finally i managed to drag myself out of the bed.Thank goodness i went because Mr Leow was very good in explaining Complex numbers to us and i could understand the concepts behind it quite well.Yeah!

Board the same bus with Hweeting,Aiting and Xinyun.They asked me whether i wanted to have lunch with them at Pizza Hut.I wanted to go but after considering the amount of money in my wallet,i've decided not to.Haha they were discussing about the campers in their og and they are like super funny!Wished i could be as humorous as them since i'm quite a sadistic person.Well anyway,slept till the late afternoon,was sleepy as usual.

Watch Death Note 2 yesterday at Vivocity.Was a bad choice since Vivocity was quite crowded and so difficult to navigate.Had a hard time finding the cinema as usual.Hmm,personally i find that DN1 is better than DN2 because the latter is soo confusing and erm illogical.It took me sometime with my analytical mind to work out the story.And i don't like its ending!But overall its the only Japanese movie that i like so it isn't that bad(:

Chat with Yanting on msn just now.She is my OG11 camper.Haha really feel good chatting with her because i've gained many insights on several stuff like the benefits of being a vegetarian and basically the life of a seventeen years old girl.And i think she is the only person who find my replies funny!Hurray,i'm funny for once(:

Okays guess i've to go soon.The weather's making me sleepy again): Ciao buddies.

2007-01-09T22:45:00.000-08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME(:

I'm born eighteen years ago on this date(like duh hur) and most people probably won't remember this date because its so early in the year!But i'm glad the people around me do(:Thanks all my dearies for making it a point to wish me a happy birthday irregardless of the medium.Really appreciate it even though i may look aloof.

Frankly speaking,i dread having my own birthdays because i sort of hate to admit that i'm actually a year older and that i'm one year closer to my death.Great,i managed to make a happy event sound sadistic.But i think this year it is different because my friends make me less emo by overwhelming me with their smiles(: So i actually do like birthdays for once(:

My first birthday sms was from Jiazhen!Woo you're great(:Then came Yolanda's and some other people.Received a few more on the bus on the way to school and i was feeling rather worried that they actually remembered my birthday.I'm strange hur?Went to meet OG11 after morning assembly.They're a good looking bunch of people!Went for Bio lecture after that and strangely i felt sleepy even though i slept for 9 hrs the day before.Then came break.AND MY CLASSMATES CELEBRATED MY BIRTHDAY IN THE CANTEEN(:The cake taste great,thanks alot dudes and dudettes.

The day went on and i have a PW exhibition briefing at 3pm.Then met Jiazhen in the canteen on the way and she say theres a OG meeting at the same time.But i need to go for the briefing so i told her i'll meet them later.Rushed back and i barely wrote a sentence on the J1 OGL application form when i saw a birthday cake approaching and heard them singing a birthday song!IT WAS FOR ME(: Oh man,i'm so touched by you guys efforts!Thanks alot OG11 for celebrating it with me because you guys make the difference.Then it was madness photo takings plus cake smearing war.Haha my face was so oily after that.Sadly i have to leave early because my friends are waiting for me,but hope you guys have fun.

Went to JP Pizza Hut with the pw gang namely Weng Kin,Chong Min and Wendy(:They wanted to have a birthday lunch with me,so sweet right?Ate alot and they were really funny people,they never fail to crack me up with laughters,especially Chong Min.Thanks guy for treating me!

Meaningful presents i have today:

From Susian.Theres a note inside.Not really a present but i treated it as one haha.

From the clique.Just as i wanted,a wallet!

From OG11.A birthday card with notes inside(:

From OG11's Valerie.She can't be there so she made me a card!Soo sweet(:

From OG11.Gigantic stickers meant for pasting on the wall i think(:

From PW gang.A nice birthday card.I really like that star there(:

From PW gang.A pink diary(:Now i can jot down my emo messages there.

BEST BIRTHDAY I EVER HAD(:

2007-01-08T18:32:00.000-08:00

Its the official first day of school for me today!The day was started with an ogl meeting.I thought i was late for it so i rushed there,only to find out that i was quite early.Had a briefing and we led our og to the hall for Love Fiesta thingy.The talk took longer than expected but its good news for us ogl since we still don't have the mood for lessons proper.Haha all of us were like still in the orientation mood,simply contented with just leading our og and doing nothing else.*POP* the bubble just burst):

At the end of the talk,Wai Yee was like asking me to go to the washroom with her.I was like 'hey,since when did you need my company to the washroom?'.I just went with her since my hair was like sticking all over and i look totally unglam.Just as when i came back,Tommy introduced me to the J1 in F3(which was weird since the camp is like over?) and SUDDENLY THEY SANG A BIRTHDAY SONG TO ME IN THE HALL!Say i'm a mountain tortoise or what,but nobody had ever sang a birthday song to me,let alone such a large group of people.I was touched that actually people do remember my birthday and that i'm not as insignificant as i used to think i am.Thanks Tommy for remembering! Had a hug from Aiting just as when i'm about to leave the hall.Aww,she is so sweet.Don;t worry,i'll keep in touch with you(:

Had a self imposed break after the meeting with Lisu,Cynthia and Phebe.Was talking about missing out in alot of lessons and whether we can catch up in our studies.That got me quite afraid because being the ultimate slacker,i felt that my postion was challenged.Okay that was stupid.Then went back to class for GP and Econs lessons.Was super duper tired and my eyes were like auto closed at each 5 mins intervals.Had a hard time keeping awake since i only slept for two hours the night before.However,i'm still able to absorb what the tutors have taught,haha.

Went to JP with half of my classmates.Ate Subway and being the mountain tortoise,Choun Eng had to help me order my food.And being ever so strange,i picked pickles and hot peppers for the vegetables.Poor Choun Eng had to suffer with me,so sorry about that!Shop around and a red adidas watch caught my attention.It was super nice but it cost $98,too expensive.Shop around more and i bought some stationery at Popular because all my stuff in my pencil case are like almost gone?A bag at the Wallet Shop caught my eyes too,its those type you carry with one shoulder and its only $23.Might consider buying that if i have some spare cash.Trained down to Commonwealth with Yiting and Choun Eng and that's about it.Man,monday blues don't exist for once(:

Taken in the bus(:

Bye<3

2007-01-07T01:57:00.000-08:00

Alchemy of Life has finally ended with a big bang.There's nothing much for me to say except that it has been great leading OG11 and being part of 01 '07.You guys are the best campers an ogl would ever want.

Thank you:

Cheryl,Louise,Elaine,Michele,Claire,Valerie,Yan Ting,Adeline,Yu Tian,Qihui,Pamela,Kai Lin,Joelynn,Junjie,Delvin,Jeremy,Daniel,Ganesan,Desmond,Jegan,John,Mao Shan,Sing Chun,Gabriel and Chang Sheng.

(:

2007-01-02T21:58:00.000-08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS!!!

Woo i'm one day late but i guess its the sincerity that counts right?I'm pretty upset now because its the LAST DAY OF THE HOLIDAYS and i'm still in party mood.Boo hoo boo,time really flies so quickly when one is enjoying himself.

My wanna-pon-band-tmr buddy message me and ask me whether i'm returning my flute tomorrow but i'm not free so i guess i have to return alone on Mon instead.Do you know i'm so freaking afraid of the band room after having a bad experience there?Haha i shall not digress,hmm Wendy's friend is also quitting band and that makes us feel better.

TOMORROW'S THE FIRST DAY OF COLLEGE LIFE FOR THE FIRST INTAKE!Its my first official day of being an ogl too(:Woo have to reach school by 6.15am to prepare first,i'm soo excited.Wonder how's the campers in my og like?Fun?reserved?approachable?Hope i can get along well with them.And that means i will have to miss one week of lessons due to this commitment.Hope i can cope with my studies after the whole thing ends.

Okays that's about it.Got to turn in early because i need to wake up at 4am tomorrow!Arrgghhh,byebye my friend.

2006-12-29T14:24:00.000-08:00

OH GREAT I CAN LOGIN TO BLOGGER!(:

Don't know what's wrong with my connection for the past few days because i can't login to foreign websites like Msn,hotmail,blogger etc.I heard only Pacific internet users have that problem though.Anyway,i so wanted to blog about my experience in ogl camp!

26.12.2006

Reached school at around 8.20am.Was abit late(oh well i admit it) and Tommy began distributing the pouch and shoelaces.For shoelaces,its yellow on the left and white on the right,looks cool(: Oh crap my memory is failing me because i can't seems to remember the events in chronological order,so i think i'll just jumble them up.

Had mass dance in the hall.Great workout!JJ is so special because we have like so many different mass dances and it can be quite a challenge to remember all of them.Most of the time i'll just peek at the person in front and dance along.The 07 batch's mass dance song is SHE BANGS.Oh man,i was slightly disappointed because i don't really like that song because it sounds so urm,cheesy?And it was quite an old song.Anyway,since we are a cool batch of ogls,we can make the whole thing look cool haha.

Played games in the rain!I'm surprised that they actually gave the go ahead for the games when its raining.Haha,basically we have to destroy Camp Edward's fortress or something with water bombs and the first camp who finished first wins.Since JJ is one big family,everybody won!Haha,sort of expected that.Then later we have another round of games and this time,its against families.IT WAS GREAT FUN!Those games require you to brave through soapy waters,foam and water bombs and after the whole thing,we are like soaking wet.The climax was the 'if you're happy and you know it' thing at the 'swimming pool'.We are like splashing at each other like there's no tomorrow and the patriotism to JJ at this time was at its highest.

Since i was in food attachment,i have to wash up after the games and prepare the food for the ogls.But the thing is that we have so little time to wash up so in the end,me and Ai Ting only changed our top!My shorts was like dripping with soapy water but there's nothing we can do since our duty is more important.Haha,sounds as though we are so noble.Then we begin keeping an eye on which table serves the most portion of food so that we can alert the people in our family.The food was not bad,but the ration was kinda little for me.Then Tommy,Chee Hung,Heiwai and Ai Ting(aiyah basically those on my table) starts gossiping about you-know-who.It waas soo funny la because initially,i thought you-know-who is quite a weirdo,then their experiences with him confirmed my doubts.Okay we sounded bad la but it was all in the name of fun.

Had night games.It was soo tiring for me because we have to run about the school searching for clues and my face was a pale shade of blue.Alright i'm exaggerating.We are leading all the way and just when i thought victory is on our side,the dice shows 2-1 and we are on step number 99-the dead end.SO NEAR YET SO FAR!Argh,we are quite disappointed but nevertheless,F3 put up a great fight.So everybody is a winner again.

Had song singing session.Sang lots of meaningful songs,especially Unbreakable.Touching at times,i'm glad i was present.

THE NIGHTMARES BEGIN.Ai Ting and me basically have a 'toilet tour' around the school after the games to wash up because we are very spooked by the dark alleys,running taps and locked doors in some of the cubicles.Girls will be girls.It took us around 45mins before we settle down at this toilet at the PD block.It was great to have known Ai Ting in the camp!Even though i'm like 10 months older than her,but i feel that she is like a big sister to me haha.Okay maybe its due to the fact that i'm quite childish.We are one of the last to turn in for the night due to our preference for 'safe toilets'I shared my sleeping bag with Xinyun but i forgot something-I DON'T HAVE ANY SWEATERS OR BLANKET WITH ME!So i was exposed to the strong aircon all night with only a Bannister shirt for comfort.It was freaking cold la given my thin layer of fats for insulation.The night passed by so slowly and suddenly there was a loud siren.FIRE DRILL.We scramble down and assemble in front of crossroad.I was thankful for the fire drill as it saved me from being frozen to death.

27.12.2006

Had mass dance again followed by breakfast,area cleaning and debrief.It was a very good experience for me on the whole because i used to have a negative mindset on JJ but after the camp,i feel a sense of belonging to her!And more importantly,i made more friends(: Thanks guys for the experience,see ya on first admin day!

2006-12-25T01:16:00.000-08:00

Even though i feel that Christmas(and perhaps valentine) is overated,but i'll still wanna wished you guys a merry merry christmas!(:

I've received and sent the most christmas smses of all time this year!My mobile was hanged with the influx and outflux of the christmas smses but i think its okay since that only happens twice a year and its pretty hilarious seeing the screen looked cranked up and stuff.Hmm and i'm surprised that there are so many people still online at msn this time.Perhaps not everybody likes to go for countdowns and parties?

Christmas is all about giving and sharing so i bought myself a christmas present today!Okay doesn't really linked i suppose but the essence is still there haha.Guess what i bought?
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A ZEN MICROPHOTO!

I hope you share the same enthusiasm as me haha.Alright this is my first mp3 player so inevitably i'll feel overly excited about it.This baby cost me $179 but i think its worth it since the functions are good.Bought it at Creative retail store at Plaza Sing and was pondering whether to buy that or Zen Neeon but decided to buy the former since the latter doesn't allows you to view photos.Have to act fast as well since its the last day of their christmas sales and its really cheap compared to its usual price.So its charging now,another 4 hours to go(:

I'm pretty tired now but i really want to study!Two more subjects to go(i'm finally done with Chemistry).So thats all buddies and have a great day!

2006-12-22T21:38:00.000-08:00

Ogl meeting today was sooooo freaking tiring):

Painted the family poster in the morning and we took up too much time so ended up rushing through it.Haha some of the paint on the poster are like of different shades but we abit heck.Had dry run(is it this spelling?) after that and man,that's the tiring part.We basically have to run from places to places to get ourselves familiarised with the timings and surroundings.Okay thats my definition of dry run,wasn't sure whether it really meant that way.I ran out of gas rather quickly due to my unneccessary bingeing during the holidays and also,not exercising at all too.Felt abit dizzy at times but i'm proud i managed to pull through!(:

Made quite alot of new friends in my family during today's ogl meeting!Weird,i didn't met some of them before during the previous meetings.But anyhow i'm glad to have their company and i think the camp is gonna be a fun event(:Had lunch on my own(takeaway).I ate 3 meats with rice,super carnivore,hopefully i'll still be alive after i reach my forties and not die of some strange heart diseases.And i suspect the person whom i bought my lunch from is my primary school's friend's mother.Okay just being nosy haha.

My wanna-pon-band-tmr buddy and i feel that we are not musically inclined so we decided to leave band!We decided to join yoga since its only once per week so its quite slack.I'm surprised we have this mutual understanding when it comes to slacking haha!Anyway,hope that its gonna be our last cca in JJ(:

Okay today is Dong Zhi right?Didn't know it until my dad came home just now and ask me to eat some Tang Yuan.Hmm,so thats about it today,3 more days till i meet Santa(:

2006-12-21T16:01:00.000-08:00

Do you know that the voice actor for Pokemon's Pikachu is actually a woman??Heres the link:http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OgUJCFCVzV0 PIKA-CHU!

I'm seriously behind time for my revision): I've been revising Chem for the past one and a half weeks and i'm still not done.Boo hoo.Hopefully i'll complete it by today.

Piang eh do you dread it whenever someone starts whining to you about something which cannot be resolved in favour of her/him?STOP WHINING PLEASE,ITS IRRITATING.I may sound harsh but please blame no one but yourself since you caused your own downfall and oh please admit your mistake.Is it really that embarrassing to admit that you are wrong and that you are not competent enough?I do that all the time and i'm pretty fine with it okay.Egoistical creature,enough said.

Maths tuition may be coming my way since my mum is worried for me.Well,i don't mind having maths tuition just as long as the tutor is not as fierce as Ms Yamuna.Alright,back to mugging,byebye.

2006-12-19T14:45:00.000-08:00

WHY DOES IT ALWAYS RAIN ON ME):?

I overslept and there goes my ogl meeting):

Mumsy just blessed me with $50 for Christmas(:

I love to study in this cool weather while listening to 987fm(:

I'm not feeling emo for once although you might not agree(:

2006-12-17T09:03:00.000-08:00

Got a shock when i board SBS bus number 153 at around 7.30pm today.

Super nice right??It looks like a lounge with all those leather seats and the table.Couldn't stop myself from taking those pictures haha.Hope i don't sound like a mountain tortoise too.

Went to the 'magic show' with Wendy and Yolanda yesterday at the Expo.Was quite mad at the start when apparently the person who sponsored me the tickets gave me the wrong one and to make things worse,he was not present at that time.Had to call his friend to give us the correct tickets and stuff and we wasted alot of time.Was quite mad with Wendy and Yolanda too because they seems to blame me for wasting their time when its not even my fault in the first place.CAN'T THEY JUST APPRECIATE THE FACT THAT THEY EVENTUALLY GOT THE TICKETS FOR FREE?Anyway i didn't throw up a tantrum because i remember that i promised myself to be nice towards people whether or not they are my enemies.Hmm anyway,the magicians are not bad,just that the show's storyline was too draggy and a tad boring.The lighting was not very good as well because basically my eyes were straining itself to be able to focus properly.Okay i'm always complaining,time to stop(:

Bought two tubs of ice cream just now.Gonna gobble them up now,yeah at this weather!Yum yum,okay that's about it,enjoy the last moments of your weekends(:

2006-12-14T22:47:00.000-08:00

Back from Malaysia.Went to Holiday Plaza and Citysquare with mumsy.Didn't buy much stuff since i'm not really in need of anything.Bought a Miss Sixteen red top for sis,Paul Frank and Emily the Strange t-shirts for myself.Mumsy say the t-shirts looked kiddo and i'm too old for those im-not-crazy-im-just-mad type of clothes.In case you don't know thats one of the Emily the Strange slogan.But i really like them so i didn't really care how i looked in them.Anyway my ETS t-shirt read-'A two headed cat is a girl's best fiend(:

Actually i bought those clothes from the Factory Outlet Store.Before you gasp,i need to tell you that those clothes with designer brands sold there are actually not fakes(i used to think that they are fakes since they are like half the price).I did an online research and found out that the clothes there are actually rejects BUT they are authentic.Personally i'm fine wearing rejects if they are in good conditions.I think the reason why my Paul Frank shirt is a reject because part of its label has been snipped off^^

Okay i just saw a close up photo of a terrorist lying on the ground with a split head.Apparently he has been shot at the head by a 0.5 calibre machine gun.Initially i wanted to post the photo here but i think you guys might suffer cerebral haemorrhage after seeing it so i shall spare you the agony(:

Its time for my chem revision again.Ciao and sleep well.

2006-12-13T03:12:00.000-08:00

My sore throat is back again because i ate 50g of milo powder straight from the tin.

I think im having insomia these few days as i can't get to sleep until the wee hours of the night so i end up watching the Doha games and the repeated telecast of the Amazing Race.Super crappy i guess but there is nothing much i can do.Anyway was suppose to go Malaysia with mumsy today but i was lazy so i refused to wake up.Felt real guity after that so i promised that i will accompany her this thursday.

I'm was feeling rather troubled just now because i kept worrying unnecessarily over school matters but i got better now after managing to convince myself that i should not compare myself with others and that its good if i do my best in my capability instead of worrying whether others will outshine you in the academic or whatever aspects.You understand what i'm trying to say?Perhaps you may be thinking that this mindset will not get you far in this increasingly competitive world where everything follows Darwin's rule,but won't you find contentment in something that you REALLY like to do even though others might think its lowly or negligible?For instance,majority of the people here mug like theres no tomorrow just so that they can get into a university and land themselves into 'good prospect' courses like Medicine,Law or Engineering(okay i admit i use to think that way too).Have they ever question themselves as to whether that is what they really wants?I mean,don't pursue things just for the status,money or even your parents.Do something that you think you really really have an interest in.I'm still in search of it and i will keep you posted as to what it is.End of lecture.

Felt the urge to go swimming now!I was really inspired to swim well when i watched those tanned swimmers doing their stuff at the Asian games on TV.Well,i'm a slow learner with a little phobia of deep waters so right now i'm still struggling with the basics.But i think it will not be long when i can compete with my friends haha.Do you think its weird for someone to go swimming alone?I feel like doing that later because i think its a drag to go swimming with someone who can't swim well(in view of a swimmer's perspective).But at the same time its weird to go swimming alone because you looked really retarded going in and out of the complex alone and swimming by yourself in the pool without a person to talk to.Then you will think that you are so pitiful and you start composing emo proses in your head and perhaps cry while you do so.So how?Okay ignore the previous sentence it wasn't suppose to make sense.

I think i'm off to revise my Chemistry.Yes,at this time.Anyway i can't sleep so hopefully i will doze off after finishing one chapter of it.Sweet dreams.

2006-12-11T15:49:00.000-08:00

Back from Ogl meeting and i'm glad it only took 2hours and 38mins.The next meeting is on this Friday and we are required to do the paintings for our family banners and stuff.

Here's a picture of me taken about 20mins ago(i'm not a cam whore though).Can you see what's wrong with it?

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I HAVE BLUE EYES!(:

Aren't you mere mortals jealous?Alright let me grab a paper bag and puke first*vomits*

Okay as you can see my eyes was photoshopped.Not a job well done i suppose since even i wasn't convinced that the eyes look natural and in fact i think it looks evil.If you look carefully,part of my eyes' white was blue too but i'm lazy to change it haha.Actually my whole face need a serious round of photoshopping too but i didn't do it since i want to scare all of you here.

Oh forget to tell you i was feeling nostalgic late last night so i browse through NTPS'(New Town Pri Sch) friendster account and i discovered two old friends of mine!Man,they look really different and i excitedly add them to my friends list.I don't really like to add people to my list for the exception of really old friends.Time flies,we are getting older...

Mumsy says she's gonna bring me to Malaysia tomorrow(yeah again).I shall say my byebyes now.

2006-12-10T00:16:00.000-08:00

Just a random post.

In neutral mood now because i'm having an official OGL meeting tomorrow and i wasn't sure whether to feel dreadful or excited since the event will probably take the whole day and you know i'm the sort that will skive when nobody's looking and stuff.Have to be in Owens and JJ shorts and since i have no Owens shirt,i borrowed it from Choun Eng.Feel like sending an sms now to remind her to bring it tomorrow but i don't want to appear naggy.Okay,i just sent it,that shows how fickle minded i'm haha.

Don't know what to expect for tomorrow's meeting.Alright let's just skip this topic since i can't get anything out of it now.Have you seen the Stars Award just now?Why do they named it that when they know that our local actors and actresses aren't much of a star themselves.The only climax of the event was when this weirdo appears on stage to receive his award and goes on blabbering non stop about how apologetic he is to his ex wife in a seemingly drunken stupor.Hello,this is on national tv okay.Geez,and why do i watch the show in the first place.

I officially wasted a month of my holidays not doing homework or any serious revision.And i sooooo hate myself for that.I remembered making a pact with someone(gosh i can't even remember who it was) that i'll utilise my holidays well after taking back my results.Argh,what to do,time and tide waits for no man!The only revision i did so far was one chapter of Maths and the whole of Econs so i'm dedicating one week each of my remaining 3 weeks of holidays to revise on each of my 3 H2 subjects.Do i sound geeky?I hope i do!

Yawn,its time for me to sleep again.Good night everyone and pleasant dreams.

2006-12-07T15:37:00.000-08:00

Boo hoo I'm having a fever,flu,sore throat and muscle aches now): Everything kenna at the same time,how cool is that yeah?I didn't see a doctor though because that could easily fetch up to quite a sum of money and also I'm kinda lazy to travel=P Speaking of which,I realised that my library books are due today.Double boo hoo!

4B' 05 Christmas celebration is on 26 Dec but I'm having OGL camp,which means I can't turn up for the former!Arghhh,why must they clash on the same date hur.The programmes looked really cool,hmm my body may not be there,but my spirit could sure be there(:

Do you dislike it when a particular someone:
1)don't agree with you over almost everything
2)thinks that she is always right even though half of the time she doesn't
3)likes to correct you unnecessarily
4)always assumes that you don't know everything when you know it better than her
5)always say things that really hurt your feelings?

I DO!!I mean,who in the world doesn't dislike it man?It doesn't mean that you can carry on with your stupid 'antics' just because I've decided to be kind and kept quiet about it.Enough said*fan bai yan*

Mumsy's back with my dinner.Porridge.Yum yum.Okays see you sometime,ciao.

2006-12-03T23:59:00.000-08:00

Wendy,my wanna-pon-band-tmr? buddy and I decided that we shall skipped band tomorrow(again!) but forced ourselves to come on Wednesday.So much so for our pledge of faith,I really hope that I will be diligent enough to shove my butt there.

Went to Sitex at Expo today with my mum.Yes you heard me right,with my mumsy!Heard lots of raves about the reasonable prices for the electronic gadgets and stuff so I've decided to check it out myself.Plus,my sis want me to source for a reasonably priced mp3 player so I guess I have to make the trip.Oh my the place was jammed pack with tech geeks and generally men who wanna source for gadgets below the normal prices.It was so crammed that my mumsy felt breathless and dizzy due to the low and high amount of oxygen and carbon dioxide respectively.I really hate those crowded places whereby bodies sticked to each other and people start pushing around as if they were the decesdents of Tarzan.Anyway,I find that the mp3 players that my sis is interested in(namely Creative and Apple) are not really that cheap so I bid my farewell to that place without looking back.

Well the mp3 players that I'm interested in is the Creative series.The Apple series are too expensive(overrated as well) for a poor girl like me.No Samsung and whatever strange brands for me please.I've took a liking for these two mp3 players:

Zen Micro.The one that I like is in pink.

Zen Neeon.The one that I like is in blue.

So how?Which one should I choose hur.Arghhh.

An artpiece by me.I'm so amateurish in drawing so pardon me if it hurts your eyes.Adjust the speed to make it faster okays.
http://artpad.art.com/?j9nt44ao6sc

Tata~

2006-12-02T00:32:00.000-08:00

So I collected the supposedly Magic Show tickets from Hon Mun today at his block in Telok Blangah and to my dismay,it wasnt really totally a magic show because the show was organised by Faith Community Baptist Church(FCBC).So my suspicions may be true,it may be an evangelistic event despite Hon Mun's strong protest.So now I really hope its not something evangelistical because I'm not in the mood for all the there-is-only-one-God kind of stuff and all that debate whether there is only one definite God.The funny thing is that Hon Mun would not be present for that magic show so that makes me relieved that his motive is not trying to convert me into a Christian or anything.So much for my complains,gosh I'm getting whiney.

By the time I collected the tickets from him,its kinda late,around 8.30pm.I strolled alongside the roads and felt kinda unwell for no apparent reason.Then suddenly I heard loud booming sounds and the dark sky was lit up with faint splashes of colours.To my amazement these were fireworks!The ulu and deserted roads and the environment that I'm strolling in add to the romantic ambience haha.So much so for my imagination,the fireworks didn't last long.I guess enjoyable moments won't last long either.

Anyone has the song,All The World by Electrico featuring Rivermaya?I've been searching for ages for that song but to no avail.Okay thanks and bye.

2006-11-25T02:48:00.000-08:00

The adventures of two seventeen years old in Malaysia:

1pm-2.30pm

Drenched in the rain as a result of not bringing umbrellas when the skies are gloomy and signalling an impending doom.Ate lunch at Marrybrown.The swings there are great fun and I hit somebody as I swinged too hard.

2.30pm-5.30pm

Went to watched Happy Feet.First time watching a movie in Malaysia.Omg the price of the ticket is soooo cheap as compared to Singapore!We bought the Students' special tickets and it cost 6.00RM for one person!I meant thats like $3 in S'pore man.The student combo set is very cheap too,3.00RM for one bag of popcorns and 1 cup of Pepsi.So wu hua haha.However,the cashiers(the person who attend to you) were quite attitude and sulky so it kinda pissed you off a little.But the mere thought of spending 6.00RM for a movie keeps you grinning from ear to ear.Happy Feet was alright,more of like a musical to me since the penguins kept singing.The storyline was abit like Nemo too,just that the baby penguins are sooo cute and cuddly!(:

5.30pm-7.00pm

Random shopping.Actually the clothes sold at Malaysia are around the same price as that of S'pore,just that its more to the Japanese style.I don't really fancy the clothes there because they are not really my cup of tea.What should I say,erm maybe too flamboyant for me?They were really striking and I don't think I can carry the look haha.

7.00pm-9.00pm

Dinner at this Hong Kong restaurant.The food sold in Malaysia are really chheeaaapp.I ordered a set meal consisting of 1)steamed rice with crispy chicken 2)borsch soup 3)'stocking' tea 4)fruits in that restaurant and it cost only 9.90RM.Can you get that in S'pore?I afraid not.The waiters there are really polite and the ambience is a big plus.Hmm...

9.00pm-11.00pm

Random shopping again.I didn't check my mobile earlier on so I didnt realised that my sis actually messaged me to get her some stuff until it was around 9plus.Uh oh.By then the shops starts closing up so I have to sacrificed this 'knee-lengthed-pants' I've bought earlier on for myself to her.Boo hoo.And I bought shower foam too,weird hur.Actually my intention of going for this trip is just to familiarise with the place so that I can bring my mum next time.Hmm,okays and we(me and yolanda,the two adventurous girls) got lost while trying to find the bridge that connects to the outside of the shopping centre and this went on until all the shops had closed and it was 10.30pm.Hello,two S'porean girls 'loitering' in a foreign country at this time is soo not funny.But we managed to get out with our determination and even took a photo in front of a cathedral to 'commemorate' that moment.

We took 13 photos(!) with the same position because the lighting was real bad.The above was the best I think.I realised that the structure of my face is like,erm abit muscular?I didnt smile too hard but my face still ends up like that.Argh *roars*

Wanted to blog more but I'm reaally tired now.Shall sleep then,bye sweeties.

2006-11-22T22:01:00.000-08:00

Hello there(:

Skipped Band again.Actually I thought of going Band after Maths lecture(yes,I really do) but the thought of waiting for 4 hours for Band after the lecture really deters me.My house is like an hour ride away from school so I can't return back home to catch some nap.And I wouldn't want to waste 4 hours on lunch so I REALLY don't feel like going.Haha,Wendy didn't go for Band either.She's like my 'wanna-pon-band-today?' buddy.But she has sore throat so I think her reason for ponning Band is excusable.Haha,I'll definitely turn up for next Monday's practice okays!

I'm rather surprised that I could catch up with today's Maths lecture despite not reading up comprehensively earlier on.I'll prefer today's lecturer than Mr Chu because I kept paying attention to her pronounciation,and that grabs my attention.I realised that she has a unique way of pronouncing 'coordinate',haha,not trying to be mean okays.Just find it rather amusing.So I'm gonna read up on Differentiation again later because there is another lecture tomorrow.Gosh,that means I have to wake up at 6am again.):

I'm feeling mellow today.My emo mood is back again.I started feeling this way on my way to buy my lunch.So I created quite a number of emo sentences and poems while walking to Macs and walking back home.Sometimes I do that too when I'm on the bus to school.Yes thats how strange I'm when I have nothing better to do.And that beats whispering sweet nothings to your imaginery friend hur.

Oh gosh I realised that this is my 100th post!!Okay yes yes I know I sounds fake.I'm not a good actress haha.Hmm,enjoy your day folks,will see you again(:

2006-11-19T13:41:00.000-08:00

Yes don't kill me,I changed my blogskin again(yet again!).I like my blog to be spacious so I picked this old school skin and revamped it.Took me 1.5hrs to changed the colours and stuff okay.

After a week's hiatus,its time to post up something again!Today's entry will be about the gathering at Yolanda's house.

We met at 11am.Initially I wasn't really looking forward to the get together,basically because I just don't have the mood and I was in my emo kinda mood again(well it always happened to me).But I must say the gathering was great fun!This is how it goes:

11.30am-1.30pm

Watching Final Destination 3.Typical teen flick.Ate chocolate fondue!I like the one with the marshmellows,yumyum.Sinful hur but heck okay.

1.30pm-3.00pm

Headed to the outdoors!Played badminton with Erick at the road outside Yol's house(she lived in a terrace house) while Yol and Tianen went cycling.Was sweating like mad because the weather was scorching and DON'T EVER play badminton in jeans,its plain stupidity(referring to myself).

3.00pm-5.00pm

Played XBOX games!Yol's one lucky girl,her Dad is into console games and stuff.Okay played lots of games there,can't really recall the titles,but I kept competing with Erick haha.I refused to compete with anyone except him because its more,erm challenging?

5.00pm-6.00pm

Photo taking time!Probably the funniest part of the day because I kept thinking of new ways to 'improvise' on my shots,trying to make it look artistic and stuff.But of course it fails miserable simply because I'm not a photogenic person.Sobs,heres it.

Posing with badminton rackets.Original and creative(:

Trying to act cute.

Group photo.Looks sucky but thats the best one we took.

Haha actually I took alot more pictures but if I post them all up it will take forever to load.Poor Erick,I forced him to took those photos with me*evil laughters*But surprisely he obliged.YAY post them in Friendster as well(:

6.00pm-8.30pm

We had steamboat(:Haha Erick was saying that he want a quick dinner but ended up taking 2.5hrs for it.I had 5 bowls of the steamboat and I gained 1kg from it!But sure it was yummy.Thanks Yolanda.

8.30pm-9.15pm

'Played' with Yol's dog.Woah her dog likes me alot!He kept jumping on me and stuff.Hmm cute but active dog.So the gathering took 10hrs!Erick was the funniest of them all.His self imposed curfew was 2pm(yes,you got me right,self imposed) but we dragged it till 9.30pm!Anyway,his going back Indonesia on Tuesday so no harm staying longer with us right?I will sure miss him.

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!

2006-11-11T23:59:00.000-08:00

As mentioned earlier,I went swimming with Yolanda(:I think we are insane because we swam from 1pm tp 7pm!It rained for quite a while but we still continue with it.Hmm I knew how to swim better now haha.I particularly like the Wave pool and the Lazy River.Do you know,we swam around 20 rounds of the Lazy River!Not exactly pure swimming,we did the ducky walk most of the time haha.Now my thighs are aching like mad.Argh the sun won't come out,therefore I still look as sickly as before,just that my skin are 'shinier'?Yeah I wonder how that happens?

Picture taken after the swim

Picture taken on the trip home in the MRT

I realised that I'm sooo not photogenic))): Okays enough of my rants,ciao.

2006-11-10T22:16:00.000-08:00

Hello there,I'm back with some updates(:

2 hours of Bio tutorial in the morning.Mdm Sim sure is getting more fierce.Thank goodness I didn't pon today's lecture man.Okays we have lunch after the tutorial and we need to wait till 2pm to hand up our I&R.Weird,why not earlier hur.Anyway,we played captain's ball during the break and it was quite fun but tiring!I stinks badly haha.Then watch the guys played basketball while we sat under the hot sun.And finally the time came when we submit our I&R.That marks the end of almost a year of PW.Geez,I guess I will feel nostalgic whenever I passed by Bukit Batok,since all of our meetings were held there.I will missed the Meeting and Reading rooms in Jade!(I think only my group members will understand this haha)

Got drenched on the way to the bus stop.Don't know why it must rain the moment I stepped out of school.Now I'm still nursing my flu,dowerty.Haha I invented that word(:Had a big big dilemma just now but I've made a decision for it.Don't feel like sharing it here because it will bore you guys,anyway its just those emo paragraphs that I always use haha.Yupyup,I'm okay(:

Going swimming with Yolanda tomorrow!SAY YAY!!!When is the last time I swam?Haha hope to get a mild tan since people always comment that I look too pale.Hope the weather will be fine too.Please don't rain hur.PLEEAASSEE!Can't wait for it(:

Demotivational quote of the day:

Destiny
You were meant for me. Perhaps as a punishment.

2006-11-07T20:24:00.000-08:00

BYE emo,HELLO vintage(:

As usual,I changed my blogskin again.Been saying this for gazillions time haha.Maybe I've too much free time man.Okay,just finished my I&R draft two in like thirty minutes so I'm really afraid that its not up to standard.Yeah quality matters more than quantity but the latter gives you security=/Anyways,I have my last OP rehearsal tomorrow so I got to hear what Ms Leow have to say again.

Been rotting the whole day in front of the computer.Don't really have the mood to revise my schoolwork nor doing anything serious.Rather laidback now I suppose.This is what I'm going to do later:

8.30-9.15:Copy notes from Choun Eng's Maths lecture book(the result for not going holidays lecture)
9.15-10.15:Practise my flute.
10.15-11.30:Practise my OP.
11.30-12.30:Bio assignment.

Yeah.Hopefully I managed to convince myself to do all that*_-

Demotivational quote of the day:

Despair
It's always darkest just before it goes pitch black.

2006-11-06T21:15:00.000-08:00

I had a sweet and fruitful day(:

Went to school at around 11.30am for OP rehearsal.In the end,Weng Kin was late so he had to treat us to durian pancakes.How 'appropriate' to eat durian before a presentation hur?Anyway,the rehearsal was very much delayed so in the end Wendy and I were late for Band.But actually we don't really care that we were late haha.

Band was great.Learnt new fingerings but far from being godlike.Make a new friend today.Angeline.She lend me the fingering chart so I got to practise hard and make sure my flute don't sound too airy.Totally hate it man haha.

Right after band,I received a message from Yolanda and she told me that Erick is currently in the UNSW.Weirdo why doesnt he go to a JC instead haha.Anyway,he is only free on the 18 or 19 of November so that means the outing can only fall on those days.I'm fine with that and I'm really excited to see Erick again!Last saw him eight months ago so I hope we can have a great time in this outing.

Yucky I'm currently hooked to some techno songs haha.Well I only listen to them when I need a good laugh.Don't know why but I will laugh real hard when I blast techno songs.Don't ever play Numa Numa=/

You can only find real happiness when you let go of your past and forget about all the misgivings.I've come to realised that finally.Thanks you(:

Demotivational quote of the day:

Burnout
Attitudes are contagious. Mine might kill you.

2006-10-30T20:43:00.000-08:00

Hello there<3>

Talking about Band,today I attended the first Band practice of my life!Drama mama hehe.I decided to choose the flute since the rest of the instruments seem so complicated and scary.Yeah I saw one with endless buttons(whatever it is called) and I wondered who invented those instruments?Obviously that person is evil haha.So this guy named Alex taught me the flute and I must tell you it is freaking difficult for a noob like me.I sort of underestimate its complexity and I hope I can learn it well.Oh yeah I saw my primary school friend in Band too!Swee Huat?Hope I got your name right haha.So right now there are 6 people from my class whom are in Band.Yippie(:

Maths lecture tomorrow.Don't really feel like going but don't have the guts to pon it either.Guess I'll have to drag myself there.Yeah I'm going to be a grumpy old woman soon haha.Gonna study for Chinese now,see ya(:

Demotivational quote of the day:

Blame
The secret to success is knowing who to blame for your failures.

2006-10-29T17:32:00.000-08:00

Great,Chinese A Levels is in 5 days time and I'm still here slacking like there is no tomorrow,simply GREAT.

Mum's in Malaysia so I have to settle my own dinner.What should I eat man,sick of Macs and the food from the hawker centre across my block.Lazy to travel far to source for food too.So maybe I should just fast and hope that I can survive till tomorrow.Nah kidding,I won't torture myself this way.Lor Mee,settled.(:

Sis' still sleeping like a log.And she scolded me for shaking the bed too violently(I was on the upper section of the double decker bed).I think I did that subconciously haha,didn't realised it as well.So I'm sorta alone in front of the monitor now and it seems scary.I like the feeling of solitude but too much of it may drives me insane haha.Okay I don't know what I'm saying,balderdash hur.So I hope I can get something done later,like starting on my revision for the oh-so-freaking-irritating Chinese and perhaps reading through the equally detestable Bio lecture notes.Yeah I do sound like a typical angsty teenager hee hee.

Found this webby that has a good list of demotivational quotes.Shouldn't tell you the webby,nanny nanny poo poo.Will post one after each entry(:

Demotivational quote of the day:

Achievement
You can do anything you set your mind to when you have vision, determination, and an endless supply of expendable labor.

2006-10-28T22:04:00.001-07:00

Oh please kill me because I've just bought two months' supply of contact lenses<3 I've tried to resist the temptation but the price of the lenses is simply too irresistable!HELLO,$14 for a month supply,where else would you get that?And I missed those plastics on my eye balls...

Bought three pairs of earrings too.Most earrings won't last 2 weeks under me simply because I'm too rough.Haha surprise surprise.And I guess my head is too heavy as I always see bits and pieces of my earrings on my bed after my sleep. This post is so random.Alright,time to bathe.

2006-10-28T22:04:00.000-07:00

2006-10-28T12:12:00.000-07:00

I was intending to post up a long entry but decided to do otherwise because I think doing my Bio tutorial will be a wiser choice(:

Lots of activities happened for the past few days!Lazy to list them out so I will only highlight the important ones.

1.Last day of school.Supposed to be a happy event but it turned out to be rather glum for me as Ms Yamuna did not tell us about the promotion results.

2.Decided to join band despite having zero background in music.

3.OGL meeting.Yes I'm in and I can anticipate the shock on your face.The first meeting was quite fun,basically it was those bonding sessions oh and did I mentioned,I FELL like a clumsy bear during one of the session.Ouch!

Why did Ms Yamuna not tell us about our fate?I was mentally prepared to accept my fate regardless what it may be and I was quite appalled when she just dismissed us right after the prize giving ceremony.So Vernon said that nobody are required to take the reexaminations but that may meant that either everyone in our class got promoted or certain individuals got to be retained without a chance for redemption.So do I belong to the former or latter?When will I know?

Did a very lame thing when I was feeling really bored.I did a weight profile at http://www.nutrition.com.sg./ Didn't know this website exist?Haha.You can try it out too!Here it goes

Weight Profile Results for Patricia

Your BMI Analysis*

Current weight
41 kg

Current BMI
15.8

Preferred weight
45 kg

Preferred BMI
17.4

Healthy BMI range
18.5 - 25

Healthy weight range
48 - 64.8 kg

Where you are on the BMI chart...

Hey the arrow went missing...

Signing off...

2006-10-26T21:16:00.000-07:00

Yeah just changed my blogskin again.I always changed it when I undergo another transition in life.Yeah,I do have alot of them haha.The original skin was on breakfast but I hated it and changed it into this one.Pretty scary hur.I guess I seriously need to bathe now,smelling really horrid.Will blog more later(:

2006-10-18T16:35:00.000-07:00

I'm uncertained.I don't know what I really want in life exactly.I'm still searching for a satisfactory answer to this doubt and I know that nobody can help me in finding that answer except for myself.So I'll just hope that one day I'll truly be enlightened and be who I really am.

So for now,it will be a roller coaster ride for me-assignments,OGL interview,A*Star,oral presentation,finding a new CCA and endless stuffs.

Phebe said something that strikes me today-''I know there's another side to you''.

Haha,well observed.I won't unleash it just yet.Man,I sounds scary haha.Okay crapping here I'm tired and I need a rest.

I should not worry too much as well.

2006-10-14T01:09:00.000-07:00

Wasn't in the mood to blog but since I'm already in front of the monitor,I've decided to post something then.

School was cool today because it ended at 12pm and that probably was the best thing about school,ie,you actually look forward to something.Went to Orchard with the clique minus Michelle and Vernon and Hanqing.I actually ate bread for lunch,haha not quite,maybe toast was a more succinct word.Watched a movie too.It was Little Miss Sunshine and I pretty quite like the movie even though others find it boring.It looks quite artsy with the old school mini van and stuff and the genre was comedy-drama.Not exactly comedy to some since they can't really catch the 'high level' jokes but overall I'll give it 4 out of 5 nachos(: No I won't say popcorns haha.

Took Neo prints too!Look real retarded in all of them,just don't know why.Perhaps I'm not photogenic!Haha Yi Ting and Lisu took like half an hour to decorate the neo prints.I guess the printer must have incurred a loss since we 'wasted' so much ink on the decorations haha.Went to KFC for dinner and I ordered Cheezito Pockett meal again.Yum yum.Man,I'm hungry now): And it was then when bad news came.One of my classmate's mum passed away.I won't harp on it because it concerns other people's family affairs but one thing for sure is that his mum will be watching over him in heaven.

Yeah,that's all I'm gonna write,hmm don't have the mood to carry on haha.Meeting up for PW and later the funeral tomorrow.I need sleep,okie ciao.

2006-10-06T20:16:00.000-07:00

Sorry for the lack of updates,been busy mugging for my Promos!Yeah I'm glad the whole thing is over now but at the same time I'm worried about my results.Maths' disastrous,Chem was alright,and as for Bio,I do not have enough time!Man,wasted all my time on Section A,thus allowing only 15mins for Section B.Feeling really stupid after that but there's nothing I can do now,SIGHS.

Been slacking,the only rightful thing to do now haha.Slept for 14 hours today,a sharp contrast to the number of hours I've clocked during my Promos.Maybe watching World Trade Centre with some of my friends during the weekends,yeah can't wait for that.

Alright I'm bored,can't wait for school on Monday!See the irony haha.Okay signing off now,ciao!~

2006-09-23T20:01:00.000-07:00

I like the way Leonhart(refer to previous post if you don't know who he is) reprimand someone.Its highly amusing=)

5 more days to Promos and I'm still slacking=/ Haha no la just kidding!Okay I did study for a tweeny bit today but I still can't get some concepts right.Meeting Mr Subash with Chin Siang on Mon to clear my doubts for Maths.Man,Vectors are so freaking abstract okay,I just can't visualise it properly.

I'VE MADE A NEW SPECS!Its black and the border of the frame is red.Its $200 man!My previous one cost around $120 only.Anyway,my degree for an eye is around 700 so I'm not surprise that it would cost that much.I've given up on contact lenses for the time being because its draining my moolah.Hello,two months worth of contact lenses cost me $50,I'll rather look like a nerd than waste those buckaroos on tiny pieces of plastic=/

Back to studying.

2006-09-19T21:20:00.000-07:00

Thanks guys,I'm totally alright now(:Guess I've shocked some of my classmates yesterday hur.Haha,the acute pain in my abdomen was so intensed that my tears came rolling down!To think that I've tolerate the pain from PW lesson till the end of Chem tutorial,haha impressive hur.Well,I think my threshold for pain is kinda high la.But I hate to let others see the weak and hapless side of me.I always have the tendency to portray a nonchalent and can't-be-bothered persona and it meant that I'm not actually showing my true self.The irony is that the more I try to adopt this persona,the more others know who I actually am.Well in fact,others often view me as a mellow and sort of,depressive individual who hasn't really exposed the fun and loving personality that she is secretly hiding.Well,you will never know.Perhaps one day I will come to terms with the different alter egos that I've displayed so far.

Had a fruitful time studying at home today.Did questions pertaining to Organic chem and I was quite confused by the numerous reactions the different hydrocarbons undergo at one point in time.But thankfully I've managed to sort it all out and hopefully my memory don't fail me haha.I'm attempting to complete my DNA tutorial later,yeah call that ambitious hur considering the fact that I didn't pay any attention to the lectures.

Happy belated birthday to you.To think that I still remembered your birthday even though you only memtioned it once online.Blame myself for having a photographic memory on useless stuffs.Haha if only my memory is as good when it comes to academic related stuff.Anyway,yeah I momentarily smile at certain thoughts.Scary hur,imagine smiling to yourself,so gross.

I still don't have the courage to tag at his blog(refer to previous post).Lets call him Leonhart(ala Squall Leonhart,my favourite character in FF8).Its cumbersome calling him 'him' all the time haha.Leonhart blogged today and I find that he resembles me in certain ways,like the style he adopt when it comes to blogging and his daily diatribes.Its quite comforting to know that someone is experiencing the same phase in life as you are right now.At least you know you are not in solitude and that perhaps will cause you to do some downward comparisons.But anyway,will keep you guys posted.

Alrighty time to go.Hope I don't sound too sad(Mrs Looi always remind us that 'sad' is a taboo word haha).Bye guys!

2006-09-16T20:02:00.000-07:00

Someone commented that my blog lacks pictures/photos etc so I've decided to post up some=)

Haha,nice?Taken during break time!Yeah,I think I look totally unglam la but can't do anything about it.

I've been reading this stranger's blog for over a week now and I really have the urge to tag in his blog.Not that I have a crush on him or what but I feel that I can relate to his problems very well.Perhaps its because we have common ground haha,like having zero self esteem/confidence and certain insecurities in our minds.Perhaps its fate that I happen to discover his blog as well and this affinity is even more emphasized when I discovered that he is actually a friend of my ex-friend.Haha,sounds lame hur,I think so too.I wonder whether he knows that I'm a consistent reader of his blog?Hmm,well I'll leave it to fate=)

Just when I thought the Monday's blues were bad enough,Chem test is on Monday.Hopefully I do well in it and really push myself to the limits.Finished my revision on Arenes,one quarter done on Hydroxy.I'm not going to sleep tonight,trust me.

2006-09-12T18:57:00.000-07:00

Hmm I'm online again haha.Yeah I often break my promises so I'm already numbed to it.Oh well just came back from school and thankfully Econs lesson has been changed to Friday instead.

Promos are starting in 16 days time,what the heck I seriously detest major examinations.And it was always during those exams that I screwed up big time.Life sucks haha but sometimes you got to blame yourself for making your life so miserable.I meant,you can't blame anyone for your lousy marks right?Since you are the one that is taking the exams,you have to make the effort to study hard/smart.Simply said,there are no free lunches in the world,in order to gain something,you must earned it.Yeah,I'm keeping that in mind as well,and hopefully I will get myself cracking after my dinner.

Perhaps I shall join Li Su and Chin Siang in their study regime after school.Really admire them for their hardworking-ness and perserverance.If it was me,I think I will drop dead after reading a page of my lecture note.Hmm,I've noticed that there are two types of students who do well in their studies.The first one are those who do less revision than others but did well in their studies anyway.In other words, they are born intelligent.The second type are those who are 'less intelligent' but make it up with consistent hardwork and thus fare well in their studies.Obviously,I don't belong to any of the groups as the topic sentence stated that ''students who do well in their studies''.Yeah lame,anyway I think certain individuals in my clique display that characteristics.For the former,I think Choun Eng is a good example haha.She can top the class for GP when she didn't really look through the thick wade of Globalisation or do any formal revision.Chin Siang falls into this category too.

Me at assembly area in the morning:''Eh CS you got do Econs(or whatever subjects) homework anot?''
CS:Mei you!

Haha and yet she did so much better than me in every subjects.Last but not least,Li Su belongs to the latter in my opinion.I never see her not doing any homework before and I think her hardwork and diligent really pays off.Yeah Chem so pro!I hope to be like them too but sometimes I felt that the steps I'm taking are often too slow.Its like on a treadmill,if the speed of the rollers(whatever you call that) are too fast for your pace,eventually your legs wouldn't take it and you will fall.Yeah hope you get what I mean.

Alrighty,whats for dinner today?INSTANT NOODLES!!!Mum ask me to settle my own dinner so being as lazy as ever,I shall cook myself a bowl of instant noodles then.Old habits die hard.At least for now =P

2006-09-10T13:14:00.000-07:00

Must STUDY hard.=(

2006-09-08T13:37:00.000-07:00

Just receive an email reply from my attachment team mate and she didn't go for the meeting yesterday too!Wah so heng haha.Okay I'm nursing a sore throat now.Wheres my Strepsils??

Oh yeah I suspect someone has been logging in to my Msn/Friendster/Hotmail account!People have been telling me that they saw me online when I'm not.Wondering whether I should try changing my password because apparently too many people have them and I don't think I feel secure about it.Yeah got to go now.Mum's nagging at me again.Bye!

2006-09-07T22:18:00.000-07:00

Alrighty,think I go back on my words haha.Will post once in a while I suppose.

Anyway,Mum is in Malaysia now and I wonder when she will come home.My study table is infested with ants*screams*,like so yucks.Hmm anyway I did my homework on a makeshift study table and I've managed to finish my GP assignments!Yay!Going to read through my Vectors notes later and hopefully finished off assignment 9A and 9B.Well I can only do that if I don't fall asleep..

I'm in a dilemma now!Should I go for the attachment meeting tomorrow?Oh well in case you didn't hear my rants,the attachment is on Bioinformatics and the main focus will be on HFMD.Profound stuff out there.I'm like so afraid of the supervisors there because they sounded quite stern and unfriendly.Argh,I'm thinking whether I should agreed to the attachment in the first place because my future career may be that of a nurse(surprise surprise!) or perhaps accountancy(provided I get an A for Maths).Yeah,its gonna take one month man,so trying to get my priority right.So how?!

2006-09-05T12:38:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps,I'm not going online for the time being.Had sort things out and I've decided its best for me to stay away from the computer so I can focused better on my studies.If my friends can do it,why not me?Yeah,don't miss me okay?!Think I will be back after the promos?Hope I don't succumb to temptations too.Alrighty,preparing my armour for the battle(promos)!Wish me luck!(:

2006-09-04T22:18:00.000-07:00

Lyrics to Bliss by Muse

Everything about you is how I wanna be
Your freedom comes naturally
Everything about you resonates happiness
Now I won't settle for less
Give me all the peace and joy in your mind
Everything about you pains my envying
Your soul can't hate anything
Everything about you is so easy to love
They're watching you from above
Give me all the peace and joy in your mind
I want the peace and joy in your mind
Give me the peace and joy in your mind
Everything about you resonates happiness
Now I won't settle for less
Give me all the peace and joy in your mind
I want the peace and joy in your mind
Give me the peace and joy in your mind

What beautiful lyrics that is.If you read between the lines,its about envy.But envy in a positive way,of course.And that leads to jealousy.Jealous about how some individuals could remain so peaceful and joyous despite stress,persecutions and rejections perhaps.I want to be the subject in that lyrics too.Wouldn't care much about what others feel about you and how others are getting on better than you.There would be some point in life whereby you will really feel the peace and joy in your mind.Its a matter of time,so don't worry.

Okay,I'm selected for the Institute of Infocomm Research attachment and I'm quite surprised that the person in charge says its okay for me not to have background in HTML.Well,my attachment is not really totally infocomm per se,primarily,you need to have strong background in Biology,so I suppose HTML background is secondary.But still,I'm still deciding whether this attachment would be suitable and manageable for me because I'm quite a retard with HTML and I don't know whether I have the commitment to stay on for a month.Well,I shall see then.

Can someone please force me to study??Hadn't touch my bag since the holidays began and I think I will start my homework after I had a bath later.Starting to feel the pressure now!Oh well not really.Okay shall end here.Bye!

P.S:Rest in peace,Steve the amiable crocodile hunter!

2006-09-01T21:12:00.000-07:00

OMG MUSE ROCKS!

I'm an official Muse head now=) Their music simply rocks big time!Maybe its because I can relate well to their songs.All their trademark depressing and melachonic tunes simply turns me on!Hmm they are really big in the UK but received few fanfare in S'pore.I think S'poreans really digs Pop and Hip Hop songs hur?Whats so nice about ''insert the names of all the chinese boybands/singers and hip hop wannabes''?Alternative rock is godlike okay!Will post their videos later=)

2006-09-01T08:42:00.000-07:00

Bliss by Muse

Check out the lead singer.He is my definition of suave=)

2006-08-30T23:30:00.000-07:00

4B'05 class outing yesterday was great with a capital G (:

Met up with Yolanda and Yilun earlier before that and we had a good chat just by sitting on the bench outside Mac.Complained about our schools blah and stuff.Later on we met up with 4B'05 at this strange Japanese 'restaurant'.Not exactly that strange but the ambience was totally off?Anyway,we had great fun and it was comforting to see our ex classmates again.Stayed till 10pm and we were like taking our own sweet time to leave?Haha,theres another so called outing tomorrow but I'm not sure whether I can make it.You see,I've loads of stuff to do...

Yeah my PW group show Ms Leow our WR draft again.This time the mistakes seem afew,which is great because it shows that our chionging and determination pays off.Haha,she said it was 'more or less okay'.Thanks Mr Subash,he was the one that told us to restructure the whole thing even though he was our maths teacher.Er weird hur.

The promos are coming real soon!Everybody screaaaaaaam!*arrrrgggghhhh* like whatever.Hadn't start revision yet and I know I must do it real soon because I DON'T WANT TO RETAIN.Alright,actually theres nothing really shameful about this retaining thing but personally for me,retaining means I'm letting my parents down(like duh) because they are pinning all their hopes on me.And it also means that I'm overaged.I don't like the sound of that,do you?

Sometimes I feel I'm too paranoid in terms of my studies and I really think too far off,like what courses in poly should I take if I failed my promos or something.Yeah I ought to relax man.This isn't right.And I really think that we should not treat the polys as a dumping ground or something because the level of difficulty for both poly and JC is around the same.Yeah face it,if you can't do well in JC,I don't see why you can do very well in poly because studying requires DISCIPLINE.I feel what Ms Yamuna says is very right-You don't need to have Einstein's IQ to ace your As,on the contrary,you need to put in alot of hard work and get things done(well I paraphrase it haha)Yeah,just some motivation for you guys out there who are feeling vexed over your studies and promos,and also for myself,who is starting to feel the symptoms..

Alrighty,thats about it.Shall blog more when i have the time.Till then,studying mode!(:

2006-08-27T12:50:00.000-07:00

Hadn't post for a while.Shall recount some of the significant events.

Friday

Went for a movie with half of my classmates.Watched Ghost Game at Orchard Cineleisure if I'm not wrong.Haha its interesting to see them scream and hiding behind their bags at the supposedly scary parts of the movie.I'm surprise that Chin Siang and Choun Eng are scared of this type of movie?Hello,I thought you guys would fall asleep during the midst of the movie haha.Anyway,I've advise you not to watch it.Its sooo boring in the sense that the ghost seems fake and looks like a replica of the adult JuOn.Oh and Comrade Jium looks like Mao Tse Tung?See it for yourself!

Shopped for Chin Siang's bag after the movie.Well,not exactly shopped since she bought the bag at the first shop she went in?Haha,if it were for me,I would take hours to decide on one.Anyway,her bag cost $29.90,a bargain eh.

Saturday

Slept for most parts of the day.Hasn't felt this tired for a long long time.I simply slept till my head was splitting.Oh and apparently I didnt meet Weng Kin and Ocm to collect the WR draft because I didnt know my cell was off.Felt really guilty about it.Anyway collect it from them in the evening and rushed on it.I really detest correcting the WR draft!The mistakes are never ending and new ones keep appearing after each session with Ms Leow.Yeah the deadline is nearing and I hope we don't screwed up big time.

Had Mac for dinner.I realised I ate fast food at least twice a week hur.But the funny thing is that I'll never grow fat.Envy me?Haha don't hit me.Hopefully my high metabolism rate doesnt stop when I aged,lest I become a ball of fats given my input of junk food.

Sunday

Took 3 hours to finish my WR draft.Put in alot of sweat in it.Hopefully Ms Leow don't find fault in it.I've realised that I've forgotten to do my Chem Tutorial!*horrors*Well I'm not exactly that frightened,it has become a conditioned reflex.

Anyway,my eyes are hurting.Been staring at the screen for God knows how many hours.Shall end here (:

2006-08-24T20:50:00.000-07:00

Great,my maths Vector tutorial is still not done.And I promised my clique that I will treat them to a feast if I fail to finish it tomorrow.Uh oh.

Slept through maths lecture today.Really can't force myself to be awake and listen to Mr Chu.Not that he is boring or what,but I just don't have the mood to pay attention.Sometimes you just wished that you can have some time to yourself and ponder over things which kinda bothers you in some way or another.Its not really negative to be worrying over trivial matters because at least you still can feel and have emotions,in other words,you do not give up on yourself totally.So thats alright in my humble opinion.Yeah,and I sort things out during the lecture.

I just received an email from a friend and in it were pictures of the US troops caring for the Iraqis.At the bottom of the photos,it wrote on how the news always paint a one sided view on the ongoing war between the US and Iraq.The US are always depicted as the bad guys who kill innocent civilians as shown in the Guantanamo incident.Yeah,it may be true that the US troops did commit the crimes,but lets not be biased and have a myopic view of this brouhaha.The US troops did care for the Iraqis to a certain extent too,if not,greater than we previously thought.Why am I saying all this?I thought that the moral behind the email applies so greatly to our lives.I felt that we should remove the speck of dust in our eyes before we pass any judgement on anything.Often,we have a certain perspective towards a particular issue,be it the way we view others or our attitude towards our studies/work.Why not make it a point to discover whats really behind these issues and address them in an impartial way?You will be surprise on how biased you really are.

Shopping plus movie day with my clique tomorrow.Going Bugis yeah!Its been quite a while since I went out and enjoy myself.Gosh I'm a country pumpkin=P Okie dookie,shall round up for now.Bye!

2006-08-20T23:20:00.000-07:00

My computer is going crazy.RAH.

Hate it when things don't go smoothly for me.Like for example I'm extremely pissed when my com refuse to load the web page within 2 seconds or when there are pop ups here and there.Or you should say I'm kinda a perfectionist.Hmm anyway my com is insane.Hopefully I get to post this entry up before my com decided to take a rest and shut down automatically.

Heard the slow version of Everytime We Touch on Perfect ten just now.The techno version sucks totally.Anyway,my mind is filled with those strange memories.I don't know how to explain it,but somehow or rather,I felt happy and bitter at the same time.Its those kind of memories whereby all the good part of it comes before the unfortunate tragic part.But the tragic part makes you understand the true meaning of life and it changes your perspective on certain things which you stand so firm on initially.So in other word it is not that bitter after all.

I wonder whether you will read my blog and also whether you still remember me after all these months.I sincerly apologised for anything that I have done wrongly or correctly as well.Anyway of course I'll still remember you even though we have not met for like 5 months?Blame it on my good memory haha.A note for you-Forgive and forget.Don't hold on to the past and wallow in self pity.It's not worth your time and your brain cells.Putting it in harsh words,perhaps its time to change your perspective on certain people,including me.People WILL change,trust me for once.If you need help or you beg to differ,feel free to contact me.

I'll learn to let go,what about you?

2006-08-19T20:42:00.000-07:00

I met my primary school friend in JJ today!Well was walking to school today when someone approached me and ask me whether I am Patricia.I couldn't recognised her at first because I'm still in a daze and was in the middle of the road.Haha but she still look the same though.Yeah Joyce I still remember you(:

Attend the bloody Chinese Riddle competition held at our school today.Wonder why our class always has to be the audiences for those cheena competitions!Anyway,had lunch with Chin Siang at the hawker near our school after the whole thing.Hmm I like hawker fare but not the ambience though.But sometimes the ambience does makes the food more tasty.That's why food at those roadside stalls always taste better than those from the classier restaurants.

What I am going to do later:

1. Hydroxy compounds tutorial
2.Chinese compo(hate it!)
3.Vectors tutorial

I need a haircut!But I can't bear to part with my hair):
Haha the melodies of life(:

2006-08-17T21:53:00.000-07:00

Ouch my stomach hurts.

Got back the rest of my common tests results.I'm kinda glad that I have made improvements in every subjects but my BIO,argh it makes me puke blood.5 out of 6 people from my clique failed,including me of course.Ranked 112th out of 180.Urgh,real humiliating and maddening.Enough said.

Suddenly remembered something that my GP teacher said.Comparison.How I hate it when people compare themselves with me.And how I detest it when I found myself comparing with others subconciously.Yeah you may say comparison with others drives you to achieve more or whatever crap,but I think I'll rather waste my brain cells on more productive stuffs.However,on the other note,downward comparison gives you reassurance.I always count my blessings when I know that at least I'm not the weakest link in class(no offence here) or when I feel more fortunate than others in terms of material things.

Okay I don't know what I'm rambling about,haha maybe I've run out of things to write or simply just brain dead.Oh Hon Mun asked me to support him in his Wushu competition on Saturday together with Cindy.Eh Wushu?Weird right?So far somemore hur.Can I give it a miss please?Haha shall see then.

Vectors tutorial here I come!My brain is starting to protest now.Well wish me luck.

2006-08-12T21:35:00.000-07:00

Not sure whether its due to my zero iron intake or what,but I've been feeling rather fatigue for the past few days.I can even fell asleep when chatting with my peeps on MSN.Yawn...

Had a haircut early this morning.The early bird catches the worms.Haha,not really applicable here.Anyway,I only had my fringe cut and its super duper cheap.$2!!!I was like 'hur,Auntie,really ar?'.Yeah,the salon was those old school kind,not fanciful and stuff but hey,I had my haircut there for the past 4 years and I think its great.

Went to Queensway just now to print some stuff.You know what,I print my EoM and the article there for just $0.40!So cheap hur.Second deal for the day haha.Oh and under my instigation,my mum bought this Singapore Sweep ticket for $3.The draw date is 16 August and the first prize is 2 million buckaroos!I sound like a typical auntie hur but imagine being 2 million dollar richer at the expense of $3.Who don't want that?But the probability of winning that is like -_- la.Shucks forgot how to calculate probability already,wonder how I got that A1 for Emaths haha.

Gonna do written report draft later plus some reading up for Vectors.Okay tata=)

2006-08-11T17:40:00.000-07:00

WOOHOO I passed my Maths common test!=)

I would never thought that I could pass Maths since it is a subject that I constantly struggle with.Hmm,beginning to feel that my efforts does pay off.Well,I must do better next time!Yeah promos coming in around 6 weeks time,not much time left.Urgh,hopefully I don't convert to my old ways and start procrastinating again.Yeah,should study from now on=)

I'm in high spirits!Sometimes the words people say really makes up your day.Someone said something encouraging to me just now and it really spurs me on to work harder for my Maths.Thank you=)

Going to eat my dinner now.Been bingeing on junk food for the past few days and am feeling guilty about it.Wonder what's up for dinner hur.Hmm,fish soup!Could smell the aroma from my room here.That's all for the day.Enjoy your Friday!(:

2006-08-10T03:47:00.000-07:00

My blog is getting simpler and smaller=)

I'm so free at home that I've decided to change my blogskin yet again.Okay,I promise that this is gonna be my last one.Yeah,hopefully you will go blind after reading my entry from that squinting haha.

Basically I've been slacking at home for the past 2.5 days.Really can't be bothered to get some stuffs done.I stand firm by my belief that holidays are meant for relaxing okays!Can't imagine myself burying my head in some dusty textbooks,urgh.Then again,the politically correct response will be to strike a balance between both aspects.So I think I'm going to get some work done later.Most probably the Bio tutorial on Nervous System due tomorrow and perhaps a little on DNA and Genomics.Pretty serious stuff hur.Oh and hope I don't fall prey to sleep.

Went to ripway.com to check why my song isn't playing.Apparently some birdbrains has been using up the allocated 30mb worth of bandwidth for the song.That means the song couldn't be played if those birdbrains keep refreshing my blog just to listen to the song or view it multiple times throughout the day.I believe the former is more likeable after I analyse the traffic for my blog.Hmm,watch out.

Going to bathe now.Can't wait for school tomorrow,yeah right.

2006-08-09T20:49:00.000-07:00

Oh great,feeling feverish all over.I think I'm gonna fall sick soon=(

Desperately inhaling the air through my mucus laden nostrils.Yucks I know.Had been like this since yesterday morning.Wonder what's up with my nose hur.Oh and the air,its filled with smoke and particles from the burning of incense papers and joss sticks.I'm not trying to be seditious or insensitive okay,just that I hope this burning thing could end soon.I'm beginning to feel rather nausea after breathing in those polluted air.AH CHOO!

Watched the NDP from my television just now.Haha really reminiese those times whereby I was part of the marching contingient during the actual parade 3 years ago.I remembered that I was a bundle of nerves when I stepped onto the tempulin because I was so afraid of fainting during the hour long ceremony.Haha,indeed a once in a lifetime experience for me=)

Enough said,my neighbours started burning incense papers again.At this time??Oh my poor nostrils!Argh,rattle my bones!

2006-08-07T19:11:00.000-07:00

Check out Supermassive Black Hole,the latest hit single by Muse!Fwah what a catchy song,godlike manz.The video is cool too,even though I don't really know what its all about.Heres the lyrics:

Ooh baby, don't you know I suffer
Ooh baby, can you hear me moan?
You caught me under false pretences
How long before you let me go?

Ooh, you set my soul alight
Ooh, you set my soul alight
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstar sucked into the supermassive
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstar sucked into... [Into the supermassive]

I thought I was a fool for no-one
Ooh baby, I'm a fool for you
You're the queen of the superficial
How long before you tell the truth?

Ooh, you set my soul alight
Ooh, you set my soul alight
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstar sucked into the supermassive
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstar sucked into... [Into the supermassive]

Supermassive black hole...
Supermassive black hole...
Supermassive black hole...
Supermassive black hole...

Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstar sucked into the supermassive
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstar sucked into the supermassive
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstar sucked into the supermassive
Glaciers melting in the dead of night
And the superstar sucked into... [Into the supermassive]

Supermassive black hole...
Supermassive black hole...
Supermassive black hole...
Supermassive black hole...

ON YOUR SPEAKERS.Haha.I like the way the lead singer croons to the song.

Anyway,two and a half days of holidays awaiting for me in 5 hours time=)

2006-08-07T04:10:00.000-07:00

supermassive black hole by muse.

2006-08-06T23:47:00.000-07:00

Do you sometimes admire those people who look good even though they are not clad in the most trendy or nicest clothings and accessories?Well,I do.Some people look charming in their tees and jeans even when they do not have good looks in the first place.Hmm,what causes this 'illusion' actually?I wanna know.

Anyway,I did something abnormal just now.I did a reflection on what I have done in the year 2006.Yeah,its too early to draw a conclusion as to whether you have done something productive for the year or you have basically wasted them away.But on the other hand,you are left with four months to achieve your New Year resolutions(I hope you still remember).Sounds scary and desperate hur.Well its gonna sounds cliche but I must say that time really flies.On 01.01.06 when the clock struck midnight,I thought that 2006 is going to be a long and dreadful year.Well,the latter is true but the former is not.Year 2006 is going to be over soon.Have you guys done what you should have been doing?Do you feel regretful over certain actions that you have taken?I shall ask you again on the last day of the year.

The speed whereby the recent years passed scares me.For all we know,our golden age might be reaching soon.Then death would eventually come.When death comes,I wonder how I would react?Will my eyes be filled with tears of sorrow,and a heart full of regrets?Or will I gasp for the air,stubbornly refusing to depart from this world?In both scenarios,one expression is present.Fear.The fear of losing your loved ones,the fear of going to hell or perhaps the fear of eternal rest.How ironic it is that we are now constantly finding more time to sleep when we should be doing otherwise.

To be honest,I'm afraid of death.You will be lying if you disagree with me.Everybody fears death to a certain extent,including Christians.I fear death because I knew that I will cease to exist after my passing on.I don't know why I'm saying all these now.I'm not hinting to you about anything anyway.And I hope I don't sounds suicidal as well.Well,I need some sleep I guess.

2006-08-06T01:01:00.000-07:00

The song that is currently playing in my blog sounds English right?Haha,its actually in Japanese!Not a new song but nevertheless,something worth appreciating.

Buying my H2 textbooks at the Popular Expo sale tomorrow!Or rather today,since its past midnight now.SO GROSS EH,buying TEXTBOOKS during sales hur.But I seriously need them to aid in my understanding of certain topics.Haiz,$68 for a textbook =/

I recently read quite a couple of blogs and I must say that I'm disgusted by the writing styles of certain bloggers.Pardon me if I have offended you but anyway you should not feel the least bit upset about it unless you have one of the writing styles that I disapprove of.Here it goes =)

Writing styles that Pat disapprove of:-

1.An entry full of lingo,short forms and deriatives of certain words

Eg:

todae i saw my ex.he ish so shuai leh!long time no see him he change liao.i ish abit de regret but moi fren told me to put everything in de past lor.haiz,i ish quite sad la...

I'm even sadder after I read your entry.

2.Entry consisting of one sentence per paragraph.

Eg:

Haha,went shopping with XXX today.

Quite fun,nearly bought the whole shop down.

I love my Ed Hardy tee,it rocks!

What a bother.

3.When the blogger start calling their boyfriend/girlfriend uncool 'alternative' names

Eg:

I ish love my bao bei to bits!

Lao gong I love you!

My dear dear call me just now..

I want to hug my princess/husband/wife blah blah blah

Oh please,it sound so freaking cheena and unromantic okay!I think there are better names to call your significant other right?

4.Entry full of profanities

She is a *****,he is a ***** *insert whatever profanities you can think of*

Hello,the world doesn't need someone to dampen their mood right?

Haha,take what I wrote above with a pinch of salt.Remember that nobody is perfect and its natural for a human to err.Its not that its a must to write with perfect English.Its just that in order for others to understand you,you must first make sure your entries are readable and not a sore to the eyes.Enough said,let me end this entry with a quote.

"A life directed chiefly toward the fulfillment of personal desires sooner or later always leads to bitter disappointment."-Albert Einstein.

2006-08-03T15:04:00.000-07:00

WOOHOO MY COMMON TESTS ARE OVER!!!

Stupid things that I have done during my common tests for the various subjects:-

>Chemistry

1. Going to the toilet at the beginning of the Chemistry paper.
Invigilator: The time now is 8.15am and you may begin.
Me: *scrambles to the toilet*

Did I mention that I've spent 13mins in the toilet?One of the female teachers was so worried that she came to check on me.Hmm..

>Biology

1. Not bringing any pencils for my Biology Paper One(MCQ).For those of you who are senile,you need to shade your answer in the lozenges of the OTAS/OMR (whatever you call that).

2.Spent 5 hours studying for Photosynthesis and Respiration and forgetting 99.9% of it during the paper.

3.Spent 30mins studying for Components of Membrane and attempted an essay question(well the other option was on Respiration) on it during the paper.

>Maths

1.Trying to recall the formula for Partial Fractions when it could be found on the first page of the paper.

2.Staple my answer sheets wrongly.I took 3 mins to undo the staple with my ruler because my stapler does not have that blade at the end.

The worst of all:-

I dropped my pencil case on the floor before the papers and all my ink pen went out of ink(including my lucky pen who brought me success for my O Level)=(

Anyway,its kinda silly that I've committed so many exams' taboo!Keeping my fingers crossed now.Yawn I'm tired.Shall blog later.

2006-07-23T23:53:00.000-07:00

Nice midi there.

2006-07-23T23:12:00.000-07:00

Fourteen signs of falling in love:

[,FOURTEEN.]:
YOU LOOK AT THEIR PROFILE PICTURE ALL THE TIME.

[.THIRTEEN.]:
WHEN YOUR ON tHE PHONE WItH tHEM LATE AT NIGHT AND THEY HANG UP, YOU STILL MISS tHEM EVEN WHEN It WAS JUST TWO MINUTES AGO.

[.TWELVE.]:
YOU READ THEIR TEXTS OR IM'S OVER AND OVER AGAIN.

[.ELEVEN.]:
YOU WALK REALLY SlOW WHEN YOU'RE WItH THEM

[.TEN.]:
YOU FEEL SHY WHENEVER THEY'RE AROUND.

[.NINE.]:
WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT THEM,YOUR HEART BEATS FASTER AND SLOWER AT THE SAME TIME

[.EIGHT.]:
YOU SMIlE WHEN YOU HEAR THEIR VOICE.

[.SEVEN.]:
WHEN YOU LOOK AT THEM, YOUCAN'T SEE THE OTHER PEOPLE AROUND YOU, All YOU SEE IS HIM/HER.

[.SIX.]:
YOU START LISTENING TO SLOW SONGS,WHILE THINKING OF THEM

[.FIVE.]:
THEY'RE ALL YOU THINK ABOUT.

[.FOUR.]:
YOU GEt HIGH JUSt FROM THEIR SCENT.

[.THREE.]:
YOU REAlIZE THAt YOU'RE AlWAYS SMILING TO YOURSELF WHEN YOU THINK ABOUT THEM.

[.TWO.]:
YOU WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR THEM, OR ANYTHING TO SEE THEM.

[.ONE.]:
WHILE READING THIS, THERE WAS ONE PERSON ON YOUR MIND THE WHOLE TIME...

I can almost see the smirk on your faces haha!Took this excerpt from a forum.Hmm I think these signs are kinda true,especially the last one.Hope it cheers up your day somehow.Oh by the way,I'VE BOUGHT THE LE COQ SPORTIF BAG!!*YAYNESS*It cost $69 and I've got to give my mum a big bear hug for it.Like some of you have said,I've got to treasure the bag like gold haha.Feeling really ecstatic now even though I'm suspecting that one of my classmate has the same bag same me.WHO FREAKING CARES!Just as long as I'm happy,you should feel glad for me too.So much joyous things had happened recently.The one that make me the most exhilarated must be that Mr Subash said that I have improved and had done well for my Maths test.I must improve again and prove to others that I'm not a retard for Maths!=) Alrighty,got to go now,I know its rather abrupt,haha,adious!

2006-07-16T23:28:00.000-07:00

I'm such a bobohead.

First of all, I note the date of my Econs test wrongly in my diary.The test is tomorrow and I know nuts about Externality.

Secondly, I did a mediocre Chinese essay over the weekends.Not that I care alot about it but I just feel guilty over my lack of discipline.

Thirdly,I wasted 1hr and 5 mins searching for materials for my EoM in the library.But thankfully God is kind and I managed to chance upon a Biology revision book.

Lastly,Chem test is on Tues but I've failed to revise it during the weekend as planned.

Tonight,I will chiong with all my might.Swt.

2006-07-14T23:15:00.000-07:00

I so badly want this Le Coq Sportif bag!

*SCREAMS*

2006-07-14T00:11:00.000-07:00

Cool track by Linkin Park.No,there is nothing wrong with your speakers:)

2006-07-13T23:43:00.000-07:00

What a busy week I had!=/

Lots of assignments to complete as usual plus a whole load of revision.Haha that explain why I'm not online for the past 3 days. My eye rings are purple now *screams* and I look even more anorexic.Well,hope my efforts pay off.

Got back my term results.They are not worth mentioning!Fare real badly as expected but thankfully I've got over it rather fast.I think its better to carry on with your life and improve on it than to dwell in self pity over something which is temporary(I believed those crappy results are there to wake me up from my 'dream').Thanks for the encouragement peeps!I will certainly be more serious in my studies from this minute onwards and prove to my enemies that I can make it big.WOOHOO!=)

Completed my Bio tutorial on Respiration!A good start for my plan to be focused on my studies.Took 3hrs to finished it.Oh yah I had Maths Test today in LT5(why am I so specific?).Topics are on Binomial Expansion and AP and GP.I was freezing in the LT and my hands were shivering.A common symptom before every Maths test haha.I was VERY slow and I don't have the time to check through my answers.Hopefully I can pass this test(I failed badly in my previous one) and I would really be very contented if that happens.Haha someone just commented that I get contented too easily.I was like, 'Oh really??' Hmm,I want to remain that way!At least I appreciate the small things in life more and life gets more meaningful and worth living that way.

Oh yeah that someone just commented that I get really pessimistic all the time.Haha I think I will second that!The phrases that I always use are 'DIE!','OH NO!','I think I will screw up my test...','I wanna die already','CHAM LIAO!' etc.Haha,don't understand why I am always so pessimistic too.Perhaps I'm afraid of failure or setback bah.But I'm working on it now so its not as jialat as last time haha.

Well I'm yawning now.Good night everybody!

2006-07-09T23:32:00.000-07:00

Remember in my previous post,I mentioned that I once lived in a hostel for girls with problematic families??I suddenly felt a wave of nostalgia when I thought about it just now!Shall let you guys know more about it.

I lived in Marymount Hostel near Thomson Rd when I was about 9 years old.Yeah,that was 8 years ago.It was basically like a typical hostel,just that it looks abit run down and creepy at times.It was managed by Catholic Sisters(don't know whether I got the term right) whom wanted to provide a shelter for girls that have broken families or broken hearts(intepret it in anyway you want haha). It was located in a ulu part of Thomson Road and since I studied in New Town Pri Sch then,the journey to school requires 1hr and 20 mins.

I guessed I was the youngest among the girls who were already in the hostel.They looked hostile and intimidating when I just arrived and I was bloody afraid of them(some of them were from Girls' home previously).After a while,I became friends with all of them!Guess its easier to be friends when you have something in common with them.Life in the hostel was basically mundane.You will have to do household chores like sweeping and mopping the floor after you had your breakfast.Then whenever you need to leave the hostel,you will have to write down your activities in this log book.Strict right?No television,phone or radio at night(simply said,no mass media at all) too,my nights are spent doing homework or reading=(The Sisters run the hostel like a military camp.

What I missed most about the hostel is the friends that I have made!So many of them have the same plight as me.Worse still,many of them are not accepted by their families for one reason or another.So many bittersweet stories behind every faces.So many broken hearts underneath that strong exterior!

Since there were no internet/MSN/handphones in that era,I have absolutely no contact with anyone of them when I left.Saying my 'Goodbye' then was a real heartbreak.When that day finally came,I took hours to pack my bag and clear up my wardrobe.When I saw my Mum walking towards me in the distance,I burst into tears.I knew that I would never be able to see those girls again.Then again,its good that my Mum came for me.At least I knew that they will feel happy for me as I would be reunited with my family again.

I wonder how are they doing now?Would they still remember me?I still remember their names and faces even though I had never seen them again when I left.They are Lay Hiang,Laura,Sze Hui,Hui Ying,Evelyn,Joanne,Cheryl,Constance,Sandy,Miao Hua and Karvander!Where are they now?Are they still in the hostel?Or perhaps God is kind to them and let them have their own families or jobs?So many questions but no answers.I really wished to meet up with them again!I dread that perhaps,I will never get to meet them again for the rest of my life..

So if affinity permits,I really hope to have any contacts with anyone of them.Curse the technology back then!Haha,hopefully heaven will allow me to bump into anyone of them on the streets,I'll sure recognise them!Sometimes I really thank God(s) for giving me such a fantabulous memory.Guess its a gift from heaven for making me suffer for the early part of my life.

Speaking of my memory,I think I'm really gifted in that area.Haha,so don't try to argue with me over things that have taken place.I will be able to pick out all the things that you have done or said that will put you in the bad light.Even though sometimes I happened to 'forget' certain details when scanning my ram,actually it was all in pretense.I only do so when I don't want the other party to feel important(that I can remember all the things that he/she say) or simply just so that we can have more things to talk about.Sounds bo liao right?That's the way I am haha.

WORLD CUP FINALS IN 2.5 HOURS TIME!WHO ARE YOU SUPPORTING??School starts at 10am tomorrow,cool eh?Well got to go now,ciao!=)